Return to the Creator

Just recently i lost two closest aunts on my mother side of the family due to health issue that commonly plaque by modern day diseases: cancer and heart failure.  My deepest sympathy and prayers to my departed aunties and also to the family who are affected.  May both granted by Heaven above to enter into the House of Our God and live happily every after in Heaven.
This is the disease commonly plaque by our society; rich food, processes products, artificial chemical, pollution and other modern day health hazard in and out of the house something that our body naturally unable to tolerate this made made product.  Always aware and caution about thing  we eat, the stress we work, need time for relaxation, take care of your health and exercise to keep your body functional daily.  A good healthy life style leads to longer and prosper life.

Happy new year! 2011

Its new year 2011! Happy new year! I hope this year will turn out to be a great start to renew my ambition and goals before my bones out of calcium as years munch by. Lots of exciting plans and at the same time i have to monitor my budget to fund some beneficial activities. There be a new website, exciting outdoor adventure, serious photography work, new designs, 3d models and hopefully a bright light in relationship. The year 2010 is too short for me and thus kinda trouble some to manage overall activities..i din't realise time just gone in a blink while standing next to nothing. I hope every seconds in year 2011 and forth will be use much wisely and meaning full since life kinda short and i'm already got into my 30's so better pump all my remaining youthfull energy to the max.

Congrats to my sister wedding

Congratulation to my sister and his newly wedded husband. It was a memorable day for our family especially for my father and mother who are very much looking forward to see this event happen in our family. The 2 days wedding events went very smooth with huge crowds of relative and friends flood the scene to celebrate my sister wedding day. Most contrast for me was the food, lots of high carbo fuel up my stomach from day till night..as usual i got for very meaty stuff...it took 4 days to finish up the surplus. She looks very beautiful on that special day and was treated like king and queen for a day. As usually my car was decorated as her wedding wagon with white and red linen, ribbons and flower decorated on my black shinning stallion. ..i wish i could keep those decoration for extra 5 more days on the road so i could drive around in funk luxurius style ..but that will make it look awkward to the public street i guess. Unlike most wedding ceremony i've attended i must say my sister wedding was the best, fun and unique compare to others because of highly interactive activity and artist celebrities come to delight us with entertainment and fun to the guests. Once again i would like to say this to my sister and his husband " Wishes you eternal happiness, luck and prosper always". Cheers.

The cat returns for last visit.

I'm not sure if i did mention this story before on this blog but i'll try to bring it up again. The image of orange cat came to my mind vividly this week as i recalled years ago when i live alone in a house in KUCHING city west of borneo continent.

7 years ago i was enjoying my hobby building 3d models (CYBORX) on my computer located in the dining room which from there i can see clear straight view through my living room with opening doors towards outside the corridor. I was busy focusing my attention on my computer screen when suddenly i have a warm feeling a guest was at the living room. I looked at the living room near the door and saw a healthy orange white tabby cat lay down comfortably in the middle, grooming itself licking paws and face. Its doesn't show much hostility at my presence especially in my house, looked felt comfortable as he see me from where i am. "It must be someone's house cat out of curiosity wondering into my house" as said in my thoughts. The orange and white tabby cat made a direct happy eye contact at me as if saying he is very much in happy state and comfort. i said "meow" and it just lay down like a happy cat. The i took my eyes of the cat and get back staring on my computer screen in just a few seconds and when i stare back its gone. I walk over hastily to the coridor to see if i can cought a glance where it could have walk out butthe cat was no where to be found. However i do feel warm and welcomed at the cat presence as if its trying to relay me a sign or something. At the sometime i have a familiar feeling i've met this cat before.

After long pause i realised i just encounter the same cat which i hit it the night i drove on my red car along the road as the orange cat try to cross the road in the middle of the night. It was a very bad timing and accidentally hit the cat seconds when it leap and ran across the road, i could feel the bumper hit it and roll over the wheels with bumps at the rear as i knew it was the skull. It was agonizing and terrifying incident, i couldn't stop and look back is the road crowded with trails of cars behind me. That night i was petrified that i just killed a cat and lost for words because i do have soft spot for cats, before i sleep i made prayers for the cat soul and ask for forgiveness in the dark was begging to GOD that the cat soul be sent to the Heaven and be happy in its his or her new happy home.

A now i'm happy after realised it came back to visit me telling me it was okay and its happy now in a far away place. I do recalled i have a bit tears in my eyes knowing the cats is now a happy cat in GOD's heaven. Not far away from the place where the cat was layed down comfortably in the living room is a Holy Cross hanging on the wall facing towards us giving us blessing for such beautiful reunion.

I come from a cat loving family i do understand very well about the aspect of cat behaviour. I love cats because the have very unique personality, life and socially humourous.

Lesson to learn every morning

Happiness comes from your tummy. Thats what i learn from a healhty elderly men who gave me a usefull advice. Eat more in the morning, less at noon and like beggar at night. A good nice tasty food early in the morning contribute huge factor bringing up a good mood to start your day till dawn, A tasty food in the morning will spark your brain to create much excitement to start your day.

Samuel and Grace wedding nights

Congratulation to my cousing for their wedding, whishes them eternal happiness and properity a head. Was very crowded at night held inside community hall. The buffet style food was good for my stomach, veges, meat, rice and drinks. Well i'm pretty full, the next day i woke up late.lol

Along the Sunset

Yet another sunny day down the road. I do feel very moody today cycling beside the beach and feel the soft glare on my sunglasses with nice slow mp3 music in my ears play me Venice style "Undine" song into my mind...all relax and cooling. Surprisingly the bird nearby bushes of tree flew slow side by side as i pedal down the lane where tree started to shed its leaves and wind blew as i passed by. Out here i feel more adventurous like a new world is there waiting for me to explore and see wonders of the scenery as it goes sunset to dawn as the sun goes down behind shadowy building glittering with diamonds light. The clouds looks amazingly awesome pink orange as i cycle up the hill for home. By night alone i go enjoy the night life and a great simple meal. The waiters and the cook welcomes and greet me with a smile serving me my favorite dishes. People around me, family, couples and normal people enjoying their night out in colorful feelings cheering the scene. I was enjoying myself, keep my mind blank and when i got home i feel relaxed and quickly doze in slumber with a smile.

Birthday?

I wake up as usual doing my usual business did even think a bit what's special going on everyday until i open my email received auto reponse from automated admin bot from forums saying happy birthday. oh? ok. so today is my birthday. Even when over to my website most online friend greet me well, i'm very happy. After few chats and post i close my pc and just go about as usual doing my thing. For others birthday is something to be proud of and ego boost of the day being king among its people...present, gift, goodies, candles, cake and all stuff under his or her name.
I only have my birthday when i was 3 years old then thats it. Throughout the years my birth day is just a normal quite day. Nothing so peculiar about or so concern about it. everyone should remember that being born here comes with reasons. To live, enjoy and die for something you believe in. My life concentrate more on getting more experience in life, gain more perpective view about the world, explore on curiousity , enjoy life, being humble and moderate. The only best gift i appreciate is "freedom". Not bound to orders, restriction, borders and criticism im at my free will. Hence should there be obstacles i have rights to eliminate and destroy without hesitation.....well which i practise when i was at young age, Birthday is freedom. So i did.

Happy Mothers day

Today is a very special day tribute to all mothers especially to my mother. "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY". I get back home early from my usual mountain biking gathering in the afternoon. Reach home by 6pm and took bath. Went out to town and got ourself a nice decent dinner table where my parents and sister gather around enjoying dinner all nice seafood dishes. Of course its my treat today for my dearest loving mother and family. As usual i ordered my favorite butter prawn dishes to keep my spirit high in my stomach. My mom enjoyed it too. I manage to give her a card and present to express our love and thanks for her contribution to us. From her expression she was indeed very happy and gratefull that we're all together to share those happy moments. As we having our meal i watch my mother sip a bowl of ginseng soup slowly and looked into her eyes, skins and every feature of her. Very wrikley, aged and not as active as she used to be when i was young at teen age. Looks helpless i realised its time to pay her back with respect and gratitude. My mom raise us very well into a life full will all necessity that we need to keep us happy and educated. We as a children well protected and well pampered though i heard in the past she never had much luxury in life when she was young as my mother was born in a small village where electricity and modern things hard to come by. ...all wooden, fire stove, water and enough roofed shelter to keep her and her parent well lived back in those days. I guess i realised my mother don't want us to live in her old ways and raise us in such lucky environment. Even thou my parent live in such moderate economy class family they did their best to give us top notch education, food, facilities and entertainment without thinking themselves but all for the sake of their children...us. I don't think i can have such big capacity to be like her so i'm very much amaze with the volume of hardwork she pour onto us. She is almost getting into her 60's now. I was much worried as her health began to deteriorate. All the best i can do now is to make her happy, make a big family, a grandchildren for her soon and make sure she live with a life full off happy memories before the days ends. We as her children would like to say thanks for everything and there nothing in this world that can match her hardwork and love our onto us. We want her to be happy and we'll always be her side when in need. "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY" mom,

ooooo...Its Sunday

Ahh...Sunday is my special day. Morning always been the best for me as i'm ready to fill my stomach with vast amount of high calories of food for extreme outdoor activity workout in the afternoon...yup mountain biking. In the city it looks really hot and sunny in the early morning but by 11am it started to get gloomy and huge down pour in just a second like huge tsunami without warning. I was expecting to be extreme wet when we reach the Bakam jungle trails but surprisingly the black cloud prefer to storm directly over the city. Hmmm.. must be urban polution factor. I rode with our fellow biker from 3.00pm till 5.00pm much faster than usual because we're doing it at racing pace to clock out time trial speed. Its was all extreme climbing, speed and death defying ride but those thrill enough to give me a big smile and huge laugh when i get back home.

Christmas 2008

Merry Christmas to everyone especially to my family, relative, friends and the community of internet especially the 4x4evo1/2 community and modelers around the globe. Honestly speaking 2008 was a bleaky year with so many tragedy, misfortunate case, political instability, bad luck, crimes and fake stuff in the market especially that tainted milk issue from china and economic slowmo. The chinese regards 2008 or the number "8" means wealth and fortune but i believe fortunes always comes with a price to pay for, "No pain no gain". Everyone tought Chrismas is a day to be happy among humans because "its end of the year", "oh finally we can share our present and gift" or "its a day to forget everthing and be happy and have a midnight party or gathering".....this is sad. "Christmas" or known as "Christ" + "Mass" (gathering of christ celebration) is a day bto remember Jesus birthday and birth of christianity and good will on earth. A day to remember him and his sacrifices.

On Christmas eve me, family, relative and friends gather around for a big feast of dinner plus with prayer to our Lord and thanks to Jesus for his sacrifices. We having a great time and my stomach are full with delicious dishes...hardly move, by the time i got home i quickly doze off into sleep mode. I'm glad my mind is empty only to think all about the purpose of Christmas. Then the next day on 25th its all rainning whole day, i was happy though....let the rain wash everthing into fresh new leaf. My friends and family went out for some gathering while i have to stay back enjoy my days on my computer and taking my chances doing some work on my PC and project. Throughout the day my meal consists of Christmas cakes and pudding on the table. Some animes videos, 3d models project and some r./c simulator to keep me entertained while rain cat and dogs dropped furiously on my roof. Was cold yet exciting. lots of missed call on my handphones but i'm sure they understand i need to be alone this christmas. my "XAVAGE" models release for 4x4 evo1/2 on my site is not yet released due to slow internet upload bandwith but i'm sure my fan can wait for another day or two since i'm all wash out tired.

2008 is a year of bad luck. Is a year of "Trust no one" and "be myself year" which is worth a lot for me. Its also a year to remember that my gandmother returned to her creator and may she reunited with my grandfather and live happily every after in god's heaven. Happy birthday jesus.

Sunday ride BBQ dinner.

After hours of intense sunday mountain biking ride we we're rewarded with nice saucy BBQ dinner at the beaches by 6.00pm where our mountain bikers member gather and share the joy and happiness. Our BBQ held to celebrate one of our rider departure to another country whom will be transfer due to work so we hope he find happiness and prosperity in his new surrounding. We got tonnes of raw beef to grill, drinks, beers, snacks and some hard food to keep us happy till night. It was cloudy and drizzle with light rain fall be gladly we manage to enjoy till 8.30pm just before heavy thunder storm cloud over us. I was like full of food in my belly, i skipped home dinner and straight to bed. Man that was awesome BBQ dinner.

My Father

Yesterday night my father went over to assist me over the car problem when i have trouble over my car engine somewehere where i got stuck near the aprking lot, I called him for help and he went all over from home to the destination in wee hours of the night. He didn't says anything just answer and go. He reached there and pull out the tools and do what best to help his children under hot weather, dusty, damp and oily work on the car engine. He use all his strength to push the car, pull out s ome hard tighten bolts and something that is beyond my normal strength. He says, "start the engine"..so i did but it fail. Then he continue toiling sweats for more than an hours. I asked him we should hire mechanic or tow truck or something but he says no, everthing is fine let we do by ourself. So i just sit back and watching as i don't know much about fixing a car. Late at night everything didn't worked well so he did some DIY tow cable and tow me all they way home without hesitation or second tought.
Back at home he slept late after settle some house work, teaching my sister school stuff, helping my mom on my grandmother medical care, and get back to check the car engine. He get on back looked tired, sweatty and yet very old in his age.
Throughout my life my father never fight and question about his children needs and reason when at times when in demand. Most people father just ignore their children and assume their children can stand on their own. Lucky me my father care so much and he will take anything to protect his love ones. I knew him very much, he is not the type seeking for material gains and fortune from his children. All he want to see is a better life for his children and family. Thats it. I wish i could repay him something that could make him happy and a way to appreciate what he has contribute to us. Maybe one day i could....make him happy until the end of the days. I love my father very much, i hope he knows too. May god bless him with fortune and happiness and also protect him on his journey of life.

Forgot my own birthday today. Happy birthday.

My days is just like any normal day, i wake up, take bath, go to work, play and sleep. Regardless its holiday, special day or new year. Everyday is the same nothing surprise me or to be celebrated. Even today is my birthday, i just treat my birthday like normal days. Nothing special about today. As usually i just go about my daily do's and enjoy what i do best today solo.
I was surprise people over internet forum reminded me that today is my birthday. I'm glad and very happy that someone very distance, unseen, but united digitally/virtually do care much about personal thing. I'm very mature when using internet. I know my judgement when trust people over the net. Actually i trust peopler more over the internet rather than people around me that's is infront of me. Ya we know its a cruel world we live in but that a reality.

The travelling man.

There's so much interesting event happening to me this week. I travel a lot with my co staff going from one company branch to another provide training to several worker to various companies. As project team leader for new company LAN System my task was pretty much sit like "sit back and watch your stuff in action". For period of 4 days going up and down and meet new faces in every meeting room seem to make me pretty numb or bored for a while. The best part is that we manage to tour around company biggest property around and get free lunch in first class venue. Sometimes I wish i just get back to my cosy table and start clicking the mouse over the software coding and modification. Network programming sounds fun but if i stick too long on the same project its like reading a 4 year old newspapers. Anyways thank god i have PSP aka walkman beside me to keep me entertained and enjoy my work for hours. Untill the end of this week trip i took lots of photo on PSP cam to documented my memories into the blog so that i can look back and experienced the past opportunity.

SPECIAL: MOTHER DAY, mini gift.

HAPPY MOTHER DAY to all mothers around the world especiall and specially to my mother who work hard all day which make me and my brother and sister as happy as we are now. Thank you mom. So we brother and sister just bought a mini present to my mom for a surprise, something we bought from bakery shop and i hope she like it. We didn't take her out for dinner yet because she is not happy if we spent to much on luxury food for such dinner at restaurant so we just buy something just enough to cherish her up and save money for kitchen expenses. Later we're going to suprise her. ;) HAPPY MOTHER DAY!!

Saturday day out.

No surprise now i'm much back again into Radio Control scene after absent for years. The parts getting cheaper and the trends also pushing up way popular then ever. I've already put my investment into few hobby grade R/C models and daily wnet outdoor for fulltime spin around local ground if i'm not onto mountain biking for the day which pretty much explain why i'm relax a day after the ride. Last Saturday evening me and my buddy who's on bigfoot bettle doing some off-roading near the beach but i've settle some technical problem for 1 hours then manage to get going later on the dirt. I've spent 30 minutes fulltime swing around and jump on the dirt with my truck doing some big air and then flip tumble 360 degree and back on its wheel again ready to sprint all over the track. It was fun pastime and great way to be outdoor watching me driving along with friends remotely on miniature car/trucks. As usually there always few trade off after fun bashing around the dirt...yeah back at home always been maintenance work, lubricating, adjusting suspension setup, tunning the electronics and unlucky me i had broken servo which cost me few bucks to fix it but its no biggy.