Just like other thursday.

Today suppose to be a happy day for me:
1. Hazy started to deteriorate and can see a bit blue sky...get to enjoy good time cycling.
2. Broke the ice on missing ideas and design for PEUGEOT.
3. Its Thursday! a few cycle of night sleep will be thursday 26th Oct...can't wait for surprise.
4. Burger!...mmmmmmmmmmmmm!

On the bad side however:
1. Bought noodle for breakfast but they forgot to tag along some soup and chilis that suppose to come in a set like the rest of the customer have. Got it 10 minutes later. Luckly i didn't pull out "the finger".
2. Some idiot turn on the air-cond set to high in my department, i'm freezing!
3. Mentally dead behind the desk, repeatative and support jobs sucks. My unused programming skills deteriorating.
4. Stupid low life driver blocking the road.
5. Camera batteries are dead, missed kodak moments shots on women fighting over boyfriend at the shop.

Wonderfull thursday i'd say. not!.

The evening rest and my dear grandma.

Today, i haven't touch any Z-modeler or other 3d tools to continue working on my 3d projects. Instead i took whole evening gather around with my family and cousins for a chat, had good delicious dinner, watch TV Movie: Alien Vs Predator, installed some games into my NOKIA NGAGE handphones and before midnight prepare my cycling gear for next evening ride with my buddies after get back from working hours next Thursday evening, pray that it wouldn't rain tomorrow.
Previously during dinner time my mom told me my grandma condition began to deteriorate both physically and mentally due to aging factor. She reported that my grandmother began to hallucinating and talking on her own as if someone was there on the wall, well its a comon symptom among old people who reached their time limit and began to count days to their lasts. Actually those action give some chills behind my spine, i knew when their days comes they will able to see things of another higher planes as if their souls are part of this terrestrial zone as their bidy to weak to accomodate spiritual gains. No bluffing matters, i also experienced accidental OBE (Out of Body Experience) which relates to existance of invisible entity. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Out-of-body_experience. Since then i strongly believe there life after death, the heavens, Our Saviour of soul and Our Creater. Before my grandmother left back to her hometown under my cousin care at LIMBANG city, i manage to spent the whole day beside my grandma who was lying on the bed with my hand holding her weak hands. She stare at me full of hope and deep feeling for her grandson. I kiss my grandma's forehead telling her not to worry and keep on praying to Jesus and God. May bright light shine upon her. Few minute later she close her eyes with calm smile, slowly she fell asleep. The next day she was sent to her hometown where she was born to be taken care by my mother's big sister. I hope to meet my gandma again on Christmas.

Flsh back: Ahhh... my very very old work place!

I found several photo snapped using my old Nokia 3200 handphone, among them are pictures of my first MIS office in Kuching. This is my first old MIS office back in the year 2001, its a starter version where i have to help a small manufacturing company facilitate IT facilities from scratch. Powered on Windows NT Server and CRM system on manufacturing side. Overall its a small manufacturing company with 50 man power. As for me i'm the only MIS people aid 50 people on IT support plus since MIS dept can do so called office miracle the boss ask me to do some "wonder" works outside my job scope: creating ISO standard and format for company operation, create business presentation, advertising and graphics, clerical works and some dumb work that i couldn't understand not even my boss (Director) or his worker could do it, non capable even its is as simple as ABC. This company is a nightmare for a single MIS personnel to handle such work with no MIS budget at hand only to salvage and recycle computer parts else where. However i gained a lot of experienced working with this company in two years. Since i was allocated on administrative side working closely and directly under Board Of Director arms i manage to learn how the company runs and how their business operation works. I learn huge amount knowledge on business corporate on how they establish sales, create business links with overseas, how to delegate sales, services, manage work force, handle company budget, government tenders, manufacturing system, some operation bloopers and marketting mistakes they made. Almost everyday they pull me up joining Board of Directors meeting even ita not related to my departmental operation but its quite an event.
For a small company it face lots of heavy competitors and sometimes bad management leads to lost profit and also creditors/debtors. Anyways this is the company which i can say worth staying for 2 years and laugh about the fact i work in very comedic company:
1. Your boss always wrong, the employee always right.
2. Don't mess around with your worker, they are your asset...they also will scratch your BMW.
3. Get ready your weapons, the loan shark are coming.
4. Get ready your car beside the windows, the loan shark are coming.
5. Never employ husband and wife in the same manufacturing zone.
6. No space to park? Fork lift to the rescue.
7. Boss always lousy at typing, they are not always smart.
8. Every general meeting is always a good meal.
9. Don't trust your office boy.
10. Don't trust claim and receipt, prefer cash and carry first before carry out operation.
11. Don't worry what ever you do, your supervisor or you boss will be in deep shit.
12. When they give you a question, just answer "YES" or "NO". Don't say "Aaaa.." you're giving to much option if you do that.
13. Sales agent have the higher heirarchy on the company, don't mess with them.
14. Recycle everthing, save the money.
15. IT people runs the company and prepare business proposal, the boss watch and learn.
16. The boss must never lose face even it takes to get cellphone newer than his staff.
17. No salary this week? Prepare a good speech.
18. 2 angry worker vs Managing director under the desk.
19. Before invest in a company just look how they feed the fish in their aquarium.
20. House keeping's the "finger" can shut the boss mouth.
21. If the boss on vacation at the end of the month, quickly get the Riot Police as soon as possible...angry hungry mob coming in.
So far i haven't have problem with people around my surrounding, i'm at neutral status that doesn't fall on both labour and admin sides. So i just merely happy go lucky witness looking at interesting event come and go inside the company. Before i left the company i manage to settle last IT implementation into their business premises: Electronic commerce system and E-payment system......but still they don't appreciate my one man mission project. Oh well i hope they enjoy my budget DIY program. They smartly terminate my contract once everyone completely educated on computers and need no supervision from MIS personnel just to cut out the budget. I should have left them dumb minded on computer rather than keep on lecturing on how to use those facilities. Oh well, glad i left the company before i went insane. Few days later i got contract from outside gaming company into UI design and began to work inhouse in Kuching. Then later move to another 3rd company as an IT staff. By 2005 i left and went over to MIRI city to start a new life again. Man! what a journey.

The hungry brain. Common symptom among brainy people.

Ever wonder why most people who think a lot and come up with ideas or stratergy are fat people? Not to discriminate them but its the fact that i experinced it on my own. When we use our brain to the max like keep on using our brain working our solution, ideas and stuff that keep our brain under pressure like me for continuous hours we will definetly experienced tiredness and our stomach will growl in hungryness. So all our energy and food stored in our body directly consume by our brain. I realised that our muscle only consume 30% of our body energy compare to our brain which suck up 70% when we use our brain to stress level.
That's why when people are stressed up and their mind keep worrying and thinking a lot of stuff these people will keep on grabbing some food, sweet drinks and even ciggarettes into their bodies to calm their emotion and brain, long term they will have higher chances of getting fat and overweight body. Thus these people seldom exercise or just only do light workout which doesn't do good to improve their health. Businessman, politician, administrative worker, office dweller and urban worker behind the clerical desk are the typical people who suffer these symptoms. Wanna proof? Just select any random company and see how many these fat collecters you can find in the buildings. I bet you'll get 79% out of 100.
My sister who work in the hospital witness these type of people coming in and out of the hospital having diabetes, arthritis, high blood sugar, stroke, heart attack and the most shocking of all they are as young as 26 years olds. I was there to hang around waiting to pick my sister up from work. Her job checking and diagnose sample of blood and other specimens from sick people, yeah! big pay i guess. When in look at those typical patient it reminds me: "That what you get when everyone work to hard for money and forget about what life is about". Oh i forgot, another person in his 24 years old have to go visit the hospital every 2 week to get his anus/annal screwed by a machine and suck all those bad chemical out from his body (KIMO Theraphy).
Back in year 2004, i concentrating too hard on my daily career in the office during the day and working out my 3d models project and some gaming contract. For almost 6 to 11 month i hardly done any excercise or cycling, my bike and cycling gear covered with dust and spider web. I was thinking too much of making some money and getting status for myself. My brain stressed out, tired and eat a lot of junks to calm my mind. The blood into my brain pumped a lot as i keep thinking and worrying a lot of stuff like what to do in the office work (MIS Dept) and thinking new ideas and due date project for my 3d models. The blood need to supply food into my brain as my brain worked hard 24 hours and contactly feed my mouth with food else my stomach keep on growling, sometimes my nose bleed. Strangely in the past when i did a cycling expedition for 450km a day, i didn't consume solid food along the ride, i just took 6 can of COCA-COLA to power me and that enough to keep my leg muscle going for 20 hours....i repeat 6x COLA to power me 20 hours on the road, but when i use my brain it took a whole table of food to feed my hungry brain in minutes. It happens only when i have to many project to handle and think about. Within just 7 months i gain from normal healthy man 55kg to overweight 79kg few year back. My gosh, plumpy and fat, those blubbly flesh pour out from my pants and when i sleep i felt so hot and my neck felt i had a big flubby rubber tied between my neck. My clothing size increase by 5 unit, heartbeat increased and sleeping time doubled and also sweaty. Those days was a nightmare, my bad i didn't join my friend back into mountain bike racing and several cycling activities in 2004, so i remain in like big bear in hibernation mode, must be lazy again.
In year 2005, i've completed my contract and project and moved to MIRI city with a job. It was a beautiful place near the seaside, my mountain biking team in KUCHING city propose me to join a group of mountain biker in MIRI city, from there i joined them upgrade my bike and my life return to healthy normal life just like my old muscular days. ho! ho!.. Others than that i still doing some gaming and 3d works with full internet access on broadband services, that was a plus. My life was good, work and physical activity well balances 50/50. I 'm getting slim, drop to 63kg, i got my six pack stomach back and get my skin tanned again with all natural vitamin D sunlight. I feel alive and strong. Anyways i still have a bad habit having 3 plates of king size dinner at night, good thing my active metabolic body burn them down overnight and also thanks to daily mountain biking activities.
It made me realise how fragile our live is if we keep on working chasing some money without putting few slot of time aside for physical activities and some outdoor life. My grandma who always do some daily gardening, farming and doing heavy house chores now live nearly 100 years old but now counting days. However some successful people strap in cash struggling their live on the hospital bed on their 56 years old with lots of diseases which no mean of cure can save them. Every time i step into the hospital and witness these scene i would shake my heads in shame. "Wealth won't save your soul". So remember "Prevention is better than cure".

She have feeling for me?

Well in the office i walk pass an admin department, as usual one of the girl with glasses greet a shy smile at me. We always exchange such shy smile almost daily if we stumble each other. Sometimes she try to peek me in the corner waiting for me to appear. There are times if i approaches to her place to do some technical work should we keep quite and as if waiting for either of us to make a move but we're to shy to talk about. She is older than me yet she looks mature and well behave. Not arrogant but lady like. I wish she's the first to make her step and say something like "Why are you doing later?". Those people around me especially the office auntie really quite supportive when it come to helping me get personal info about her. However she like to have a nice afternoon tea. When ever i approach to her i felt a bit cowardly and strong warm feeling for her. It must be that cupid hangging around with me all day try to eliminate my bachelor status.

Saving up for bigger vehicle for my father.

Well after numerous projects i manage to save up some budget for future purchasing. I'm planing to get my father bigger 4 wheeler. I don't plan to go for bank loan because of the interest rate they charge and not worth putting bet on it. So i'm going for cash and carry. His old Toyota engine could keep up with heavy load and its time for me to get him a good nice 4x4 ride. My mom didn't know i planing to get my father a 4 wheeler, maybe a PRADO but if she knew what i kept for she would say i should keep it and buy a house. I don't have any thoughts of getting my own house since we have another one on the other side of the city (Kuching). I guess she meant getting a house and a wife. I knew her intention but hey i need to work hard on both side. PRADO is my dad's dream 4 wheeler, always dream getting a good wheel roam around the country side just like his brother and sister. I guess i should pick one soon for him the best by next year...work hard David!

12 years, i love cycling.

Ha! ha! its Sunday again. As usual its about me and my bike together get away from urban concrete and dive into dense green mother nature. I love cycling. I've been mountain biking for more than 12 years, travel thousands of kilometers, discover beautiful places, people, culture, civilization, dangerous adventure and won lots of medal in mountain biking racing, yeah! Mountain biking is already part of my life, can't live without it. It gives total freedom to go everywhere i wish to be and get me there and show the world how big it is and how beautiful the place we live in and the people along the way. Its the best way to seek the truth about the living and fantasy places that was once we admire on magazine cover vacation spot and explore the diverse culture and country around the globe. I'm glad to be born to love cycling, it made me dare to explore unknown world, fear nothing, fear no pain, be strong, independant, mental power and test the limit of human body. With all the medals i gain from mountain bike racing both national and international i guess i pushes my limit to the max. Felt happy when all my competitors eat dust but at the end of the racing event its all about enjoying the sports and friendship. Sometimes i forgot about winning and stay within the crowd for a good laugh and sharing experience. As for my body, i always involve in brutal accident, crash and serious injury, scars everywhere around my body and sometimes i manage to see my own bones beneath the flesh as result of serious flesh cut and wounds....any did i felt bad?, nope i'm damn super proud! yeah. For mountain biker these freak event is something noble and proud to have some punishment over my body. Sometimes when i look at old cuts wound and sticthes on my body it always serve me as a history book and sweet memories of cycling. Well there positive side torturing my body through heavy accidents, crash, wounds and cuts, it made me tougher and skin become thicker like armour...ha! ha! you won't get that simply through normal workout or gym. Everytime i ride in a week i always loose weight about 5 kg in a week. So on Saturday and Sunday night i always eat like a king as if there no tomorrow, yup! high carbohidrate, sugar and more meat..i love my life, diet sucks!. Sometimes i hate driving my car, especially when i are cruising at the speed of a bicycle on the road to my destination, no enjoyment and nothing but depression behind the car steering wheel.
I always wanted some cold breezy gush of wind hitting my face, touch the blue sky and cycle along golden green grass and beautiful backdrop of mountain and ocean beside me. I learn the most important thing in cycling: "You don't see the world by just reading some books, its better to go out there and experience the real world on your own". So i did and i never regret it.

Good times...

I wish i had a month of holidays...not. Got few anime episode i need to finish off viewing. Nice story plots and other touching stuff. Great way to enjoy some spare time and clear off my mind on my hobbies. The hazy days out side the house keep me indoor all the time. But that can stop me riding tomorrow. Else i would have to sit infront of computer doing 3d models again.

Yup! new add-on kits for 3d models

Yes, got my websites updated with new stuff for fans to download, Texture Theme Pack for latest models add-on kit. Hopefully mods fans and 4x4evo community will download to extend choices and variation on an existing models. CYBORX, EXODUS, XENO 2 and XCALIBUR now ready to dress up with new texture kit. Downloadables at 3 major websites under "Texture Pack" section.
http://www.geocities.com/SupermotoXL
http://4x4evo.net/smxl
http://www.chimpusmaximus.com/SupermotoXL
As for progress on other 3d models including project "SIXTY-7" supercars i'll going to slow down and make way for PEUGEOT design contest which need to meet deadlines by early December. Anyway its still in the blueprint because the design is very tricky and judges looking foward on very simplified design and ecologically friendly to the environment. So far i sketched 3 designs but non of them looks quite OK. Hrrrrmmmmmm.. really frustrated when i can't squish out ideas from my brain.

Oh yeah another thing, a special greetings to one of our gaming fans of 4x4evo1/evo2 community: Happy birthday Volvo (his nickname), study hard and success career in the future.

Cool!! Happy i am, new parts for my bike.

Allright! yeah. I'm really damn happy today, yes! yes! Finally i receive new bike parts replacement for my front shocks, just arrive at my home. I've purchase order a new MANITOU MINUTE 130mm travel front suspension from my friends bike shop to replace my 5 year old broken Orange MANITOU SX-R 100mm travel which have catridge and damping leakage. Hopefully this new fork perform well both crosscountry racing and freeride trails riding. The new shocks costs me a lot and could by me a new notebook PC but instead i should invest something worth while on my bike. Good bye Orange fork, hello black fork. I was amaze with this new fork, it looks tougher in contruction and have longer height for safe and confidence in downhill decent ride. Adjustable height from 100mm to 130mm suspension suppelness. Air preassurise, coil spring and oil damping technology. In fact this is my 9th front suspension replacement in 11 year of mountain biking activity. In the evening i quickly unwrapped the box and install on my bike, it fits well except the upper steering tube have surplus longer height which need to be cut tomorrow at my friends bike shop. Overall looks, my bike looks much tougher and macho. But feeling bad because there's unbalance in color coordination and originality looks, Black suspension fork on orange bike?! Hmmmm.... doesn't looks very tasty but i'll have to live up with the fact and ride for performance in mind. Btw i have kept enough budget to upgrade the bike as the parts getting worn out, its been 5 years i haven't change my parts a bit.

Hazy Tuesday, more time on site update.

Today i suppose to go out cycling with my friend but i declined because its hazy out there, visibility shorten to 1km no thanks to our neighbouring country who started some rampant open forest fire. The thick smog now spreading fast reaching Singapore and up north-east, might take week until we able to see blue sky. It maybe a good day for me to take a break and spent more times infront of my computer and get on with my models website update. My desk kinda messy with custom made CPU case making hissing noises yet stay cool below critical tempreature. I've just created Texture THEME PACK ready to be uploaded before Thursday which offer variable texture theme for my favorite vehicle models which i created last year till early 2006. Its going to be a blast. Yeah!

Hellooooo Kitty!

In a very corner of the house on cold Monday morning: "Shuuu!.... Shuuu!... stay away from me... can't you see i'm sleeping ...zzzz ..zzzz ..zzzzz."

Sunday is here again. Going up the hills.

Sunday, once again me and my buddy went off to the hilly country side for mountain biking. There are about 18 of us going in for 5 hours ride through dusty and hard pack trails leading toward hills and valleys. The trails was a bit wet and damp due to Saturday overnight rains and the weather is not that favourable too yet hazardous because of hazy condition brought in from neighbouring country bush fire. Visibility: 4km. Anyways that doesn't hinder us from riding. As usually we go up and down, up and down and wave in through very technical path with huge obstacles, slippery loose cliff, big natural pot holes and sharp edgey turns. My front shocks: 100mm year 2000 MANITOU SX didn't perform well that day because the damping chamber was leak and irreplaceble. Its time to change a new ones. The longer we travel the more tired we get, exhausted but good thing our heart rate are stable and enough to pump our muscles to keep on going. They way we ride through the trails is like competing among ourself who got to reach the finishing point. Its is racing instead of fun ride because most riders in there have this road biker attitude. So 30% of the trails before we reach the finishing line we sprint like hell leaving the packs like there's no tomorrow. Few hours later we reached to our final destination. I got top 4th spot 1 minutes behind the third. It took 30 minutes to wait for others to return back to our gathering spot. We took a good nice rest, pop-up few cans of cold Isotonic drinks and had a few laughs, At 7.15pm we load our bikes into the car and head back home. Once i reach home i clean my bike, wash clothes, baths, dinner and straight away head to bed...did i forget something... oh yes! website update! ....mmmm... maybe tomorrow..too tired...

Hot day...sleep..zz..zzzzz

Saturday is a very hot day, pretty ugly weather condition because the sky is hazy and thick. Hardly see any blue atmosphere or clouds. In the afternoon i took a long silent nap as i felt tired and to weak to do daily chores because last night i have to stay awake till 3.00am wee morning to accompany my sick grandmother in the hospital. She suffer weak heart again to near strok status, we sent her early to the hospital avoid any complication. After seeing her condition it really reminds me to appreciate life and enjoy it to the max while we still can and not to wait till we get old and regret another day. Well i hope i could achieve something big goal and fame before its too late. Life is so short.

Long..long time ago..a there was a car..

Among all the models that i built, this one caught my heart and truely have some spirit in speed and beauty. This is my concept supercar CORVETTE XVT-GT1 LE, low slung widebody track burner. Built in early 2003 along with other 3 XVT variant. It doesn't take long to built these models on Z-modeler because of it low 3d polygon properties as low as approx. 3k overall. I lost track how many mysterious models hidden from public hands i feel proud to keep it as a Limited Edition Collectors item. Shadows of XVT models having design traits for it long frontal chassis to accomodate inline 12 cyclinders will be resurrected with another new rival...yes you guess it, its 2006-07 "SIXTY-7". Coming your way soon.

Losing 9kg in two weeks. YEah!

Oh gosh, people at my work place started to notice that i'm losing weight....drastically. I weight myself at nearby weighting machine and was amazed. I lose 9 kilos in just two weeks. From 68kg to 59kg. Wow! Looks like my 6 hours intense mountain biking ride does paid of with superb result. Other than that i still can enjoy 3 plates of breakfast and dinner eat like king but still burn some calories like every month of brutal cycling but still maintain lightweight, slims and bulks leg muscles. haa.haa beat that! In your face gym freak! Mines comes natural. On the good side i still got my six pack muscular stomach and bulk shoulder just like 2 years ago when i was active on national cycling races....lots of medals!
On the bad side my pants getting much loose and i had to hold my hand on the belt to keep it uplift and my face are total flat. My friend in the office reminded me to look back myself in the mirror and eat more carbo foods and meat....hey wait!..3 plates ain't enuff?! Ok..ok ..i'll eat more. Btw...my father is much more muscular than me. Hmmmmm....hmmmmm...wooaaahhh.

Update site in progress.......typing..typing....typing...

Today, i have to play my role as responsible good citizen of gaming community, lol. Yes, i'm now typing some documents, pack up some game add-on resources to be uploaded into my site very soon. As requested by Starbuck and other fan i should gather few rare collection of my texture work that was previously published at the gallery as Limited Edition theme models using various cool paintjobs and make it available to the public. These are high resolution texture. My buddy Starbuck wanted to have those for his Track Mania conversion work. At the same time made several updates and fix on my webpage, looks like i got lots of faulty and missing links.

brrrrrrrr......zzzz....zzz....zz

Yesterday night cycling activity pose bad effect to me today. It looks like i didn't have enough sleep. Yesterday slept at 2.30am and wake at 5.30am, I can feel my eye lid felt like totaly dried and minty, hardly concentrate working on my 3d models on the screen, very blurry. So i decided to lay down on the bed, took out some drawing paper and pencil and draw something and along the way keep my body at resting position rather than at streaneous sitting posture behind the computer. Yeah, i made skectches for upcoming PEUGEOT models. Sometimes it really though to have to favourite dedicated hobby run on the same day when you know you just come back from the office and grab another breath for next favorite activity. Mountain Biking and 3D modelling....if only earth could have spins 48 hours a day but with longer night hours by 70%, ha ha... thats great!

The nights are young.

I spent few hours out into the city nights, driving around looking for inspiration and ideas for upcoming projects, i pick up some snacks and cold drinks too cool myself down after long hours of office work in the day. This week i suppose to upload some Limited Edition texture file for CYBORX and EXODUS models into my website for public download for Starbuck from Track Mania request. Maybe i should do it tomorrow.

Sunday crash day.

Today, i crashed, flung over the handlebar on my bike as i try to decent steep hills. I tumble 360 and landed hard on my back and then followed the bike coming bash over me from above but luckily it didn't hit my head, but instead i crushed my right pinky finger. My finger felt numb and swollen as if the bone crack internally. But no problem, i get to used to it seveal times. Several other mountain biker trying to do them same attempt and two of the ended like me. Lmao!
Anyway Sunday rides always a great ride, i max out my body endurance and can feel the muscle burst out its capacity....i had a good long sleep after long hours enjoyment riding in the forest.

My car design quote for today.

Car design simplicity quote of the day: "Lousy driver needs bumper only".
My note: putting bumper on my designs just wasting some space on the chassis. Throughtout my life i never seen a bumpers that protects your car from total wreck. Believe me this thing is just another phcycological gimmick on your car. "ohh i got bumper, i'm saved"...ditch that crap.

Squish out ideas for design contest..arrghhh!

Today i concentrate a lot on pulling out ideas on new models design PEUGEOT designs contest. It was tough considering the fact the the design has to meet specific criteria and theme requirement which reflect on the design itself. I pull out my 3d modeler program started making variable shape and sizes too see if any ideas spark behind these object outline. Now reached day 4 since i commence the design. I'm stuck! I'm stuck..no more ideas. Why stuck? ...because limitation like environmental friendly, simplicity, accessible, efficiency and stuff must be imbedded in those designs. However in history my line of design commonly based on muscle and exotics supercars that guzzle more energy and fuel comsumption and that is bad for the contest. Meanwhile i'm putting "SIXTY-7" project to slow mode but keep on going a little bit to make way for PEUGEOT concept's time slot.

Grandma back to normal.

Wheww, i'm glad grandma was ok. I went to the hospital and visit her in the ward where she was well treated hospital staff and stayed there for few days, When i spot her she was seating on the bed and having evening dinner in a normal condition just like back to her own self again. The doctor gave her several pills for daily health intake. Beside her bed is my auntie who accompany her throughout the nights to make sure someone by her side if anything happens. I held my grandma hands, it was hot but warm. I held my ID card and show to her to test and see if she can read, notice my photo on it, she can see it clearly and knew who she was looking at...thus this indicate her mind is well focus. She was happy to see me, i'm glad too. I chat and hang around for couple of hours, then before i left for home i gave her a big hug and gave promise that i'll visit her again after work. Thanks to god she is ok. When i stepped outside the the day blessed with clear blue sky, wonderfull ray of sunlights and breezy wind from south sea after numerous raining season since yesterday. Its time to ride my bike and enjoy the world around me!.

Wish my grandma get well soon.

Yesterday my grandma whom is my mom's mother was admitted to the hospital due to high blood pressure and heart problem. She got this symptom of dizziness and frequent vomit as her body weaken. The doctor recommended my grandma to stay in the hospital for few days under doctors monitoring and supervision. My mom and auntie took turn to take care of her at the ward room. She's almost reaching 100 years old. That night i stand beside her and held her hands. It was soft and weak. Looking at her face i can tell she will soon someday will join with my grandpa in a better place far above. But i was hoping that god would keep her stay long enough on earth to witness changes and progress in our family. God bless my grandma and i pray she'll recover soon and get back into the family to experience every wonderful moments with her big family.

Should i redesign my website?

Should i redesign my website? I was thinking of trying to simplified my website user interface to more simple and eye pleasant view. The current one looks crampy and pack with full information. There are 3 website and two of them serve as backup:



I'm planing to remove the footer in the future which take few pixel of vertical space sooner or later. Another alternatice is to make it changeable user interface by applying various themes. Well we'll see how it turns up, right now i have to think about PEUGEOT's design and pull out some new ideas to attract the judges. Think something new, think outside the border.

Another crunchy sunday breakfast.

Flour, a little butter, sugar, water, cooking oil, a wok and good cooking skills. Well no nuggets today. I'm cooking my old favorite falt fried pan cake...my fried cooking style. All ingredients mixed into the bowl, stir it until everthing fully mixed into white slurpy looks, heat up the wok, put an oil the pour some light slurpy ingredients into the deep frying oil in circular motion. Hear it sounds fizzy till the flour turn into golden bake color then flip it again. When its done put it on the plate and continue the next batch. I made around 9 pieces and some surplus goes for fried banana recipe. These simple breakfast enough to skip lunch and fuel me up for afternoon mountain biking rides. Yum! yum!

Can't wait for tomorrow rides, all fixed.

Upon maintenance and checking in notice my first big chain ring on the crank losing 1 out of 44 teeth for drive terrains, while the middle chain ring losing 2 out of 32. I'll need to get crank set replacement by next month. Anyways if i don't shift a lot i should run smooth for tomorrow rides. Me and my mountain biking group will return back to the same place on top of the hill behind the city like last Sunday for downhill course and trails riding. I hope tomorrow blessed with sunny blue sky on the afternoon just like today. Anyways i saved few hundred worth of replacement after fix some broken parts only by extra modification that would last estimated for a year worth riding. Yes!

List to do this afternoon.

Hmmm..preeety busy today. I should do some handy works with heavy tools and metals on my mountain bikes because it need heavy maintenance and parts replacement before tomorrow Sunday afternoon rides. I made some checklist for today timetable:
1. Replace and create new patch of disc brake padding on worn out SHIMANO XT Deore using YAMAHA metallic pads.
2. Tighten loose/shakey hydraulic lever.
3. Tune rear XTR derailure shifting
4. Path leaked 2.2in tubes
5. Clean inner housing cables and LX shifter pods
6. Adjust tension/ROCLOC on my helmets.
7. Adjust clip tension on my SPD
8. Clean the bike
9. Remove mud, dirt and gunk on chain rings, sprockets, cogsets and front shocks
10. Degrease and relube the drive terrains system
11. Tune cyclo computer wheel rpm and radius setting.
12. Restore broken, cuts and leaked tyre with BOSTIK adhesive.
13. Adjust the disc brake lever sensitivity and check for mineral oil brake reservoir
14. Clean my SPD shoes.
What a day to keep my bike and equipment healthy.

More sleep and PEUGEOT

Things going slow today, that's how i felt. My eyes felt dried, my body felt heavy every foot step i took and spinny concentation. I guess i didn't have enough sleep last night.
Yesterday after midnight i slept at 3.00am. I came back home from cycling training at 11.00pm, then took bath and wash my clothes, 12.30am took a heavy dinner, 1.00am finish my dinner and head to my computer working on my models and design contest for PEUGEOT, 2.00am take a break and watch tv, 3.00am feeling drowzy and tired, go to sleep. 5.30am, wakey wakey but in bad shape.....tired and lack of enough sleep. I should spend 3 hours sleep before dinner tonight so that i feel refresh back and enough energy to keep me awake so tha i could work on the PEUGEOT design contest.

New triple stacks rear lights set and exhaust tube.

Hmmm..."SIXTY-7" looking good on its rear design! 2x 3 rows of circulars lensed rear lights and 2x tripezium futuristic tubular exhaust pipe located same way as "NEMIXIS" exhaust pipe position. I just spent easy time doing stuff bits by bits every hours...nothing to rush about. The only thing i need to add on its rear is an extended rear skirting or very know as floor "Air Diffuser" just below the "X" beam to beef up chassis height appearance.

Late wakey wakey.

By the way this morning i suppose to wake up early by 4.30 am to prepare cooking some pan cakes and fried crusty bread so i can bring those food to my work place as my breakfast and lunch. But unfortunately i woke up at 5.20 am just enough time for taking bath, iron clothes and do some 3d work before off to the office.
Next morning i'll be sure to pull my ear and woke up at scheduled time for my home made breakfast.

"SIXTY-7" new rear light placement.

A new design implementation on "SIXTY-7" models. It has been decided that the rear brake, reverse and signal light should be located along the X-beam groove just along the upper shoulder of the chassis structure which almost have similar design to NISSAN 350Z's rear lights except SIXTY-7 have more stretched and closer to center chassis focus light beam. The exhaust muzzle located similar to "NEMIXIS" exhaust port. "SIXTY-7" however have extra two ports for rear hear dumping ventilation which visibly located at the very rear side of the models with distinct small but smooth triangular vent for air to escape after circleling around the the chasis and cockpit.

Last sunday riding down the hills.

Yesterday i was very tired as i get back home after few hard mountain biking rides behind the city hills and trails. Hardly put my butt behind the computer and quickly i doze off to bed that night. Our mountain biking group have made a long trails leading from top top hill to down the foot trails with zig zag style path making it almost dual slalom like riding but really steep and have to many jump, bumps and slippery drifting switchbacks section behind the city hill top. I was on my hardtails bikes which is very hard to handle since i cycle way fast and cut through tricky corner. I crashed a lot because to many unpredictable bumps and pot holes hidden under the thick grass. I tumble 360 twice every loop i whoop on. Good thing i just had a minor bruises and skabs on my arm and legs below knee.
At night i called my good old buddy who own a bike shop in Kuching City far west side of the state for quote for full suspension bike models and price. Last time i sold my Specialized FSR bike to him now i wanna check out if i can get similar models at updated feature for 2006.

Still not enough!..Lunch time with pizza!

Its noon! lunch! lunch! Now this one is much better than nuggets in the morning. PIZZA HUT! Beef, cheese, veges, saucy spreading and crusty pizza layer. Yum! yum! .....uuhhhhffffssss! My stomach full of crappy food. Wonder if i could cycle at full speed after being overweight by fast food.

Sunday anime watch on notebook.

Ok. after that heavy dinner i took out an ACER notebook an watch some anime episodes. I can't watch certain episode on my PC because the graphic card can't render smooth animation frame when the video screen resized, it looks jagged, i told you ASROCK motherboard with intergrated S3 SAVAGE 3D Pro graphic cards sucks big time! good thing this notebook runing on ATI 200M graphics manage to keep the videos looks smooth and wonderfully rendered. Ah,why i pick up ACER laptop....cause DELL notebook battery can burn and kaaappooofff! anytime, now there recalling their Sony made batteries.

The morning nuggets return!

After morning church i went back home...get ready a half full cooking oil on frying pot. Yes again, nuggets in the morning. All 32 pieces munched in just 32 minutes...well approximately like that. Plus nice hot tea to keep me awake. Need lots of crappy ut tasty munchy calories to get extra energy for this afternoon mountain biking activity. You can say i cook nuggets today because i'm too lazy to cook complicated cuisine or go out to a coffee shop and grab some fresh breakfast. .....lllaaaaazzzyyy to cook.

Big Fat Worm for lunch?!

Uhhhhhh, you know what is this served on the lunch plate yesterday (Saturday), one of my grandma favorite dishes. My mom even like it very much, its has to be cooked barbequed and tasted good when smoke. You can smell those chewey fat and it smells like saucey beef stake. But hold your mouth watering flavour dreams, unless you know what's cooking....it really make me wanna shiver when i realised how freaky those food are. It really reminds me of FEAR FACTOR show.
My granda cooked: SAGO WORM...... you know the one looks like a giant fat maggot worm with an astronaut helmet kinda heat that feeds on dead damp sago wood in the swampy sago plantation area. Yeah, they sell it in the wet market. The native love these fat flavored maggot....i'm meant super ultra fat slugs! Its smellled good when they smoked those in the kitchen but when i look at it and mom ask me to try one i like.....aaaahhhhhh!!! noooo noooo...freak show! freak show! i wanna puke! No wonder so many people want to get their hands on that thingy just because they smellled very good and some people even so crazy they ate it fresh live raw. Luckily not one of my family member wanna eat raw fresh live infront of me. I don't want to know much details. I'll stick to fries and decent beef cheese burger please. Today is Sunday!...chicken nuggets!!

SIXTY-7 rear view chassis: test

Mmmmm.... ooohhh.. did i hit the right spot?, previously i playing around with several parts of 3d meshes and stick around behind "SIXTY-7" at strategic points and came out with radical design layout for the chassis rear apperance.
Its way to much for coupe car but it looks really killer looking out look with various vent holes and exhaust ports. So far i haven't finalised which section should i aplly on light brakes, signal lights and reverse light. Comparison to its big brother "NEMIXIS", this one have much flatter rear chassis and high clearance between ground and under carriage between rear wheels. This is really some kick ass ideas!

Early stage: Take a peek at ultimate "SIXTY-7" model design.

Yesterday my primary active partition that holds Windows XP operating system's master boot record corrupted render unbootable, it doesn't take long to reinstall thing back again. 5 hours later its done. Good thing it doesn't effect much of my working material especially project "SIXTY7".
Above on the left image is sample of screenshot of "SIXTY7" chassis design: a short tail sports coupe taken on mid MAY 2006 in early production on old AMD pc render on klunker GeForce2 MX200. It looks like rivalry to Mercedes CLK and Dodge Viper. "SIXTY7" was design to be muscular and feeling like carrying a big block inline 12 engine on the front hood. Something came out from Gotham City. As seen from the picture it share almost same facial characteristic as "NEMIXIS" which is my idea carrying its genetic inheritance foward to its new siblings. This car should be in the James Bond 007 next movie.

Try to grab cool offer on PCI-e system.

Well this morning I called my friend who previously offered to sell his AMD + PCI-e system to me at cheaper price. He was planning to replace his system with Intel Duo Core PC or new AMD AM2. He always keep his system updated to current trend just to keep the game and multimedia at peak and quality satisfactory performance. He got Geforce 7900GT in his hands, which make me, drool and awe in astonishment. Here are the lists of parts he try to sell
CPU: AMD 3000+ 64
Motherboard: ABIT K8N Ultra socket 939 on Nforce 4 with PCI-e with

http://www.abit.com.tw/page/sa/motherboard/motherboard_detail.php?pMODEL_NAME=KN8+Ultra-SOTES&fMTYPE=Socket%20939

Graphic Card: ALBATRON Geforce 6600 GT

http://www.albatron.com.tw/english/it/vga/specification.asp?pro_id=121#

Total price: USD $205 and below.
I was like doubt and confuse if I should go for it because overall the performance compare to my old AMD system on Geforce 6800GT fell below the my standard performance and test. This spec is just sufficient enough to make stationary unanimated quality rendering. My major concern is how good can it render a ‘running’ vehicle models on 4x4evo2 with settings at shown below:
Anti-aliasing: 8x
Anisotropic: 4x
DirectX: TNL DX8
Resolution: 1024x768
Frame Rate Per-sec (FPS): >> 55fps limit <<

http://www23.tomshardware.com/graphics.html?modelx=33&model1=540&model2=545&chart=197


However other parts such as Memory modules hardisks, case and other PC parts will be used from my previous good old COOLER MASTER PRAETORIAN case. Right now he still on halt whether he should sell it immediately or wait for AMD AM2 system before he could release his current system which is the one he’s going to sell off. I hope he do it fast because somewhere by November 2006 I should ready to release a new 4x4 SUV designs with quality rendering, presentation and driving performance for 4x4 EVO 2 add-on customs.

No Fear!

Last evening me and group of mountain biker went up to the top of 'Canada Hill' in MIRI city scouting for downhill trails and create some long trails for us to explore and use it as a place for us to ride every weekend. We brought some grass and plants clearing tools and shovel to create path for our mountain biking downhilling trails.
As for me i found new spot for me to enjoy and test my guts and fear against 60 degree killer 600 meters longest starcase in MIRI city and also no doubt in Borneo. It was hidden away from public view by crowded wooden house villages and local native settlement way up on the hills. I went down at steep decent through the longest white narrow staircase. Few local kids and old people was startled and mazed with our activity and started to gather some crowds. I manage to clear the area and successfull went down to the last foor of staircase drop on the ground level with no accident. My friend on the other hand crashed badly head first, tore his bike paintjobs and some bruises on his chest because he didn't manage to do left sharp turn at narrow 65 degrees stairs drop. He then decided to walk back up the stairs and phone me through cellphone that he would meet me back to the next downhill point where few mountain bikers will be there to test new downhill track new the PETRONAS MUSEUM at top hills.
I agree and cycle back to that area where i have to cycle way up again. 35 minutes later i rejoin with them and in the background crowd gather and cheers as one of our mountain biker buddy Mr. William manage to jump and slide down the steep suicidal downhill nearly steep angle at 80 degree with 'S' bend at peak drop point. He manage to dive down as smooth as butter. Not many people wanted to do the steep downhill dive so i gave my best suicidal shot on my bike. At first 2 try i skid at the peak and almost crash hit the rock near the curve. Over the curve is deep ravine of no return. Crash there and there's no tomorrow. It was getting dark at 7.00pm. Everyone waiting to next competitors to beat Williams record.
So i lowered my seat, everyone saw i'm ready to make the third attempt to dive in at steep downfill point. I knock my pedals to clear off some dust, clip on and keep on pedal downwards...
At 'S' turn i say my prayer and quickly move my body way behind my saddle. My front wheels drop down damn fast at damn steep angle. Quickly i lock the rear break and make an INITIAL-D drift turn so that the rear wheels navigate the body into a straight line position where i can drop straight down and clear off the path while the speed on my bike maintain at safe level. Then as fast as lightning i duck down and leap above bumpy rocky hills downwards and yes.... i manage to clear the hills with no freak accident. People like cheering and stunned. hhaa..haaa.. yeah. I faced my fear now. Other just like, "what tha"... and wish the could do the same stuff i did but risk getting major accident at drop point.
I push my bike back up the hills again. It was dusty trails. My whole body covered with white powdery dusts from dry soils. My bike all white but looks dirt rugged..cool!. Up there i went over to the cooler box, pop-up some two ice canned "100 plus isotonic" drinks, look back behind me into the city backdrop down the hills behind the thick dense forest in between and said "Damn that was really a sick ride....but one mighty happy day today!"

Nuggets in the morning!

Woke up at 5.15am,
-took bath
-turn on the pc and working on my new 3d models.
-6.25am: Go to church
-8.30am: back from church and arrive home....
Since i'm lazy to cook some reeeeaaaallll heeeaaalllthhhyy wwhhoooolleeesooommeee.. breakfast, I decided to unpack some stuff from the freezer and grab loads of golden unthaw nuggets.
Heaten up some cooking oil and put dozen of nugget till deep fried. Few minutes later it turn into golden hot orange, crispy and yummy. All together there are 29 pieces all for me..bwaahaa haa..
Took out some Thai Chilli sauce, dip my nugget on it and yeahh...mmmmmm!! goood!
Enjoying my nuggets while sitting in front of my PC playing online. What a great time to spent early morning Sunday.

Strange meaningless dream.

Today I got this weird dream I had last night:
I was like running side by side with an opponent with number tag on his T-shirt..kinda like sport event or something, I’m jumping though tyres, climb over the wooden wall, cling over the vines and swing from one end to other end like Tarzan and landed at the foot of the tower . Then run up the stairs chasing my opponent to see who got reach the top first.
On top there’s a rope which link from the top tower to the lower ground with length around 100m. Participants have to glide down like flying squirrel on wire. Upon reaching the ground there’s a bike. I walk over.. it was my orange/grey mountain bike, the instructor then instructed us to cycle back and forth round the local village country side… then suddenly I woke up,….its Saturday - 5.40am. Wheeww…what was that all about.!?

Office: Going down, going up and round and round we go...in the office.

If i'm not mistaken if i start working in the office from 8.00am to 5.00pm i must have been walking around the office at length of 45Km overall per-day alone. Almost daily from Monday to Friday.
I felt like an office boy instead of IT personnel. In a day i just spent 3 hours behind my PC desk and the rest hours walking around doing IT support and services to noobish user. When i arrive at my desk more paper work coming in, phone calls, account admin, e-mail, remote desktop support, some customer crapping some some BS, wiring, network troubleshooting, anything from A to Z..yeah you name it.
Today i almost lost balance on my body, some office staff tell me if i got sick or something because i had a pale face, i almost collapse and began dizzy, i got almost sudden blackout vision at around 2.00pm. My body can't hold on such pressure. I even took heavy breakfast and moderate lunch before that...should have full blown enery till night time...but doesn't work at all.
Whenever i get back to the desk, sit down and look behind me i can see my office colleague within the same MIS/IT department sleeping, relaxing, chatting laughing, surf the net and some play dumb. WTF.. are these guy working or something? How come they have so much free time? Big pay and relaxing? What the hell. If i were in there shoes i would slot those free time with self learning skills on stuff like LINUX and learn how to built my own server on RED HAT. Unlucky for me its hard to dig just a few minutes to take time learning those stuff. My boss previously promised me to put me into LINUX administration position. Few months later he dump me into web design work in the future after meeting i heard from my colleague. This is distrust to employee.
All the employees in the companies under the same building notice that the rest of the staff MIS department have been slacking around and over use the resources because they only saw me running around helping people around the building and outside realtime. Good thing my relationship with outside department so call inter company relationship become more closer and friendlier. My public relation with workers are good especially with bosses and other higher management people. I can see some potential showing up. I felt so happy and plus with tears of joy when i knew some people really care what i have been through and gave support and cheer to me to continue keep up the good work. And yes i did, before i get back home i never left any job undone. Everything must be completed on time.