I was playing 4x4evo2 for 2 hours just now after came back from partime work.. then i went outside the corridor house and lay down on the chair look above the sky at night.
Its Aprill!!!...damn it!
I never realise how hard this few days starting last march. It made me realise being grown up in the adult world is really hard than being me few year back....i'd prefer life 10 years backward. Back then i was on 17, life is good its just like those in the teenage comical story book. .. you only have to think just few task you need to accomplised: Study, make friend and play hard. Counting year foward after graduation from university and now standing in the year 2007 my shoulder began to carry heavy burden which once our parents carried for our living sake. Work...work...work...work.. yup money doesn't fall from the sky and money make the world turn around like water flows from waterfall, rivers and into the sea. I wish there would be 48 hours a day...half working for employer for decent salary and half for family and self ambition. I hate the idea of money for everthing in live. I hardly enjoy myself having a slot of time to go out enjoy riding my bike, playing games and meet people...time always full with office jobs and partime work all for money; then pay bills, electric, water, taxes, house hold necessity, car loan, house loan, insurance, medical, food, parents allowance, brother and sister education funding and my study loan that i use in the past. Arrrggghhhh... heavy burden!
I used to read Christian bibles about house Jesus used to live in the days where civilisation was moderate and just enough to live with natural resources live fishing and agriculture. There on part that took my attention in the book "worry nothing, thin nothing on material gains and daily task that burden us, enjoy life and worship...in the after life we will gain what was lost". I wish i was in the same path as Jesus live but nowadays things isn't fair in commercialisation world.
Today is "Good Friday", even after came back from church i still have to go out full filling my part time job on computer task and some graphic work at my contractor place...then i came back home, grab out some hard earn cash from my pocket, then i realised i lost my touch some important things to do than just working my ass for money. I should have spent more times with my family and quality with my friends, all work make me stray away from social activity.
Its been a month without rain right here in my town. The night sky is couldless. The moon shines so bright!! Its beautiful..i can see stars that shines more beautiful than any other days..the stars is like people shines in the dark. I wish i was one of the star which shines much brighter that anyone else and let people below the sky watch me in awe.
