Return to the Creator

Just recently i lost two closest aunts on my mother side of the family due to health issue that commonly plaque by modern day diseases: cancer and heart failure.  My deepest sympathy and prayers to my departed aunties and also to the family who are affected.  May both granted by Heaven above to enter into the House of Our God and live happily every after in Heaven.
This is the disease commonly plaque by our society; rich food, processes products, artificial chemical, pollution and other modern day health hazard in and out of the house something that our body naturally unable to tolerate this made made product.  Always aware and caution about thing  we eat, the stress we work, need time for relaxation, take care of your health and exercise to keep your body functional daily.  A good healthy life style leads to longer and prosper life.

The grave fit for one.

I felt lucky to hear a speech made by a spiritual person few weeks back, it really made me realised how important for us to know that material and luxury object isn't everything we need to live for. For the next few year to come i may accumulate properties like houses, cars, money, entertainment object and investment valuables but if i die someday i will never able to bring all this luxuries along with me into another world nor able to enjoy it. Else i could have been a ghost too tied to material belonging which explain why there are reports of ghosts still posses their old belonging on earth. Which is why all spiritual leaders says we should free our minds from earthly things..so we could depart to heavens with open hearts. Its is true indeed the grave could only fit a person leaving behind properties to family and relative to fought and manage over. Again too many material means to many headache to manage, its better to have none or at minimal to avoid much risks. Honestly i don't feel happy having to much stuff around my belt; car, house, computers, furniture and stuff that i keep for no reasons. If i have an opportunity to live a free life i would choose to take 3 items along with me; a bicycle, money and a mini notebook. Then depart to wonder around the globe visit beautiful places on bicycle. The end.

The cat returns for last visit.

I'm not sure if i did mention this story before on this blog but i'll try to bring it up again. The image of orange cat came to my mind vividly this week as i recalled years ago when i live alone in a house in KUCHING city west of borneo continent.

7 years ago i was enjoying my hobby building 3d models (CYBORX) on my computer located in the dining room which from there i can see clear straight view through my living room with opening doors towards outside the corridor. I was busy focusing my attention on my computer screen when suddenly i have a warm feeling a guest was at the living room. I looked at the living room near the door and saw a healthy orange white tabby cat lay down comfortably in the middle, grooming itself licking paws and face. Its doesn't show much hostility at my presence especially in my house, looked felt comfortable as he see me from where i am. "It must be someone's house cat out of curiosity wondering into my house" as said in my thoughts. The orange and white tabby cat made a direct happy eye contact at me as if saying he is very much in happy state and comfort. i said "meow" and it just lay down like a happy cat. The i took my eyes of the cat and get back staring on my computer screen in just a few seconds and when i stare back its gone. I walk over hastily to the coridor to see if i can cought a glance where it could have walk out butthe cat was no where to be found. However i do feel warm and welcomed at the cat presence as if its trying to relay me a sign or something. At the sometime i have a familiar feeling i've met this cat before.

After long pause i realised i just encounter the same cat which i hit it the night i drove on my red car along the road as the orange cat try to cross the road in the middle of the night. It was a very bad timing and accidentally hit the cat seconds when it leap and ran across the road, i could feel the bumper hit it and roll over the wheels with bumps at the rear as i knew it was the skull. It was agonizing and terrifying incident, i couldn't stop and look back is the road crowded with trails of cars behind me. That night i was petrified that i just killed a cat and lost for words because i do have soft spot for cats, before i sleep i made prayers for the cat soul and ask for forgiveness in the dark was begging to GOD that the cat soul be sent to the Heaven and be happy in its his or her new happy home.

A now i'm happy after realised it came back to visit me telling me it was okay and its happy now in a far away place. I do recalled i have a bit tears in my eyes knowing the cats is now a happy cat in GOD's heaven. Not far away from the place where the cat was layed down comfortably in the living room is a Holy Cross hanging on the wall facing towards us giving us blessing for such beautiful reunion.

I come from a cat loving family i do understand very well about the aspect of cat behaviour. I love cats because the have very unique personality, life and socially humourous.

June full of bad luck,

You know my story what's happening throughout jun:
-Grandma went to heaven
-Family motor accident
-EXAGE models release delays
-Broken 1/24 MINI-Z .....$$$
-Broken network card and PCI slot....zapped by lightning
-Another cooked graphic card (just recently)..$$$
-And now another damaged big tooth....really painful
I just don't know why it happened so much and so costy this month. Did i did something wrong in May? Anyways i'm in July now hoping for changes and my my lucky coin turn towards a luck face, I'm going to get another car this month hopefully everything runs well.

Grandma funeral. Knocking on heavens door.

Sunday is a sad day for everyone, early wee morning we prepare ourself for last view on our grandma before we send her off to the funeral ground. Relative, friends and close neighbours in my grandma's friendly village came over to give comfort and help. By around 10am we did some prayer and then buried her beside her late husband and family whose already left much earlier in the past. My mom and her sister looks very sad but calm to accept such sad departure of their love ones. I did some prayer mine over here. I just hope that she enjoy her new life in her new worl in gods land. She now knocking on heavens door greeted by her long losst love ones. We as her children and great children wishes her happiness and peace high above the heaven. Thanks grandma.

Rest in peace Grandmother

I was in shock when my mom shout for help late midnight at 3am when i got down and saw my long paralyze grandmother have difficulty in breathing..cough out milk from her mouth. Her body tempreature gone very cold. Quickly our family dash her to the hospital but by the time it reached the hospital she was long gone. The only reason the doctor say she was too weak to live because she was too old and there's nothing he can do about it. My mom terrified and cry in tear but in a way she did except the fate. As for me its all in the hand of god. i just share my moments with my other near my grandmother lifeless boy in the emergency room. It was restless night everyone woke up to arrange immediate prayer and funeral for next day.

I'll be leaving for a few days for funeral function so will not be around in the websites and forum.

My grandmother suffer terrible aging sickness which she was half paralyze over her body unvbale to move talk or even eat. Its all feed from the tube, manual grooming and 24hrs care on the bed. On 20th June around 3pm she finally return back to created and return into the arms of her love ones especially to my grandfather. I hope she found eternal happiness, peace and cheerful life in my lord house in the heaven. Rest in Peace Grandma. We always love you and be in our hearts.

Soon happiness for you kitty...

Not everyone is so called nice guy. We just can't judge them from their beautiful cover. So this one i'm doing this on behalf of these special cats out there and let everyone know whats its like to be in their world:

Last Saturday me my buddy went to a public park in the evening for dinner. Lots of people coming in and out from the cafe table, We're sitting in the open space beside grassy garden and near by beautiful water fountains. Evening cloud was beautiul. There's a couple of cats playing around jumping and chasing each other, pouncing and playing happily in their garden,...one of them is a male Tabby cat and another is female crown spotted Calico. They were flipping around, rolling on the grass, ambush among them selve in the bushes and as playfull as 10 year old kid. The cafe owner nearby admire the cats spirit and freedom...the cats were there before cafe was open...so they were permanent resident free to enjoy and play around in the garden. People were entertained by act of these cats, the cats were also friendly, it exchange soft meowy greetings and walk around the pavement nearby the table but it doesn't distrub anyone who's having a lovely evening dinner. Its a paradise for these cats which almost been a stray and found their place as home...i've seen the cats hanging here for quite a long time since last year ago. Even dogs nearby get along with them.
An hours passed since we had dinner then came a couple of guy and gal with hope for romatic evening dinner at an open space beside us. As happy as they are they hold each other hands and share feeling with each other. Then suddenly came a friendly cat with its usual routine greet and welcomes the people with warm meow. The couple were stunned, the guy wasn't pleased at all as it scared his girlfriend..cat phobic?!?. So with its macho-ness attitude he walks to the cat and gave a big whoop kicking on the cat's belly and step hardly on the tabby cat's head as if he trying to crush the skull againts the pavement. The cat vomitted! After he's satisfied he kicked the cat aside very hard and return back to his sit, he grabbed out his cigarette and puff out some tabacco. His girlfriends was relieved, his boyfriend control macho feel while enjoying his ciggy. That poor cat crawl slowly into small corner of the flower patch try to regain conciousness as it vomit a little and another white Calico female cat with crowed spotty fur pattern saw it happen from other side of the garden and quickly jump in and run to him, she comes to console its pain by licking his head. That poor tabby cat was too traumatic to budge away from that corner but after half an hour it duck slowly from that space and went back into the garden near the cool fountain and lay down for a rest while his partner walk beside and aid him all the way. Both cats lay down on the grass, very passive, unactive, no mood to play around with its friend,,,, sometimes he looked back right at the table where the couple who hit him seated. Both cat stare at the same spot and from the expression i saw it looked very dissappointed and frustrated yet they didn't even fight back because they knew their limitation. The two cats lay down together on the grass and put their heads close together to calm each other pain and sadness...i could hear soft tones from female cat consoling its partner. Its was a pity sight for me.
As for that macho guy, looks like he was laughing all the way enjoying his evening with sinister looks and trendy hair style, having good time like nothing had happen. WTF!!! he should be ashame and should realised where he was standing.....as a guest to this park he should respect the resident(cats) who live there and being their rightfull home. His girlfriend also wasn't care much about animal feeling...wasn't that animal type of people i see. Later after they finish their dinner they went off to their luxury car and away into the darkness of the night...may heaven and hell judge them. The cats saw the couple moved away but too bad they weren't in the mood for active play time....maybe felt guilt or musshy to kick start their play time.

Some people just don't have any heart for other living being. Animal are just like people also they have feeling, love, heart passion, guilt and kindness. The only gap and barrier is their communication/language and physical limitation. Just like humans they have souls and go to heaven. When they go there they will tell stories how people treat them and that's sounds like bad news for those who did something against the animal....but for me that's is good!..that's the fact alright. If you search at http://www.wikipedia.com under 'Cat' you'll notice they(cats) exist to serve human and believe to guide our souls during after life transition. So we need to respect them not only as part of these believe but rights to live and share living space with them. I hope those people who have rotten heart and did cruel to the animal will someday received their own taste of their medicine. My heartfelt and happiness wishes to the cats and other animal who have been abused and wonder around for freedom, may they seek a place, a garden of happiness where they can called their place a safe sweet home away from unfair cruel world.