Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Cancer Striken


For my family its was a sad moment of disbelief after hearing my mother receive a doctor report confirm my mom diagnosed with cancer below the colon which comes along with a growth within She didn't tell me at what level the cancer at but i have a premonition she's hiding some fact about it. My mother says not to worry so much about her. I can see it in her eyes she was ready to face the uncertainty of her future, her gesture shows she is very much worry about us children especially our youngest ones. Long tiring chemotheraphy and surgery was on her schedule next month and beyond leaving us to planned our duties to take care of everything especially our young ones who are still schooling for the entire months which is ok for us since its part of our family responsibility. Everyday i made my prayer to our god asking for a miracle so that He may cure my mother's cancer illness and hope she live long enough to see the future of his children (us).

Hearing my mother having a cancer doesn't made me feeling grief about it but was at disbelief. That is because it "suddenly" too frequent inflicted my family and our relative which probability by almost 80%.
Since last year and now my sister, few aunts and relative was diagnosed with tumour and cancer and have been through lots of procedure to remove it at early stage. Known as fatal diseases at final state it was a life and death issue which translated to shortened ones life by approx five year if not treated. It made me wonder how our decent clean everyday live can ended up in such health disaster to everyone. It looks like modern day by products human manufacturing have something to do with this. Tumour and Cancer seldom hear back between 70's and the 90's but in year 2000 and beyond health statistic shown there's an increase of Tumour and Cancer patient exponential with the arise of modern day processed products such as food and households item. Work hazard and usage of technology can posed hazard too. After narrowing down common probabilites that inflict my family and relative i hinted it should have been the food we consume everyday.

You don't get much quality food nowadays, foods as mass produced at low cost to gain more profit. Which use cheap ingredients, low cost quality control and lots of shortcuts to get the product done without considering some health factor. This are "Rich" cheap food. In the 90's Fat, Cholesterol and too much sugar kills you, today its those preservative such as Melamine, boric acid, artificial MSG and other artificial ingredients are the ones that kills you with permanent mark to your health. Its was the same ingredients that keep the food looks bulky and keep it last beyond its natural recomended lifeshelf. In the world of profit making is all about put more cost on mass production and cutt less on healthy quality control on foods. I used to work in food industries so i knew much of the stories. Simply said you can't trust any processed food from stores today even the one served from the restaurant. Who knows maybe they used cheap recycled cooking oil or melted plastic to keep your food crunchy. The best practice it to buy fresh raw food, cook it yourself and keep doing some active physical activity and exercise to keep you and your health in shape if want to life a longer life. Food commercialism does kills.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Opps! Its Mooncake festival dinner today!

Was surpise that today was Mooncake festival and everyone was in the rushed to get back home to celebrate the occasion. My sister already made a plan ahead for taking the whole family and her fiance for dinner at hotel. Its been quite a while we haven't had dine outside our home at night. Lots of dummy growling dishes was served including 4 seasons cuisine, steam bass fished, sweet mixed veges, bbq duck, toated chicken dumplings, tasty chicken soup, rices, sweet seasoned cutted jelly fish and some dessert. Was a great dinner for this week especially with family. Being absent minded to know whats happening inside the calendar was my obvious personal traits. Sometimes i do forget my own birthday.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Sister engagement plan



Finally two family meet along with close relative to gather around for my sister's engagement plan with his boyfriend. Congrats on next coming engagement ceremony. Heard some hefty protocols to maintain both side traditional engagement culture during an hour discussion. Both side went mission accomplish status then its time for dinner...thats the best part.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Early for Christmas


Everyone kinda busy for Christmas. Young ones get excited, quickly got the Christmas tree up weeks early before eve. However this new era Christmas celebration wasn’t as merry as it was before in the mid 1980’s. We usually have our Chrismas at our grandparents home, relatives and family as whole group together and our Christmas part would run 24 hours for a weeks with endless of friends and relative coming to our grandparents in country side. I can even hear them dancing, singing, sounds of clanking mug and old man chatting in and outside the house. Cakes, drinks, muffin and goodies still abundant in stocks. I would always linger around the kitchen for a few nips. Granny always keep baking more cakes and nice family recipe munchies.
Later between 1995 till current time such country side home to my grandparents wasn’t much to celebrate. Some of my grandparent departed, others relative migrated, and other younger generation seeking job far away from home. Our Christmas celebration has been in moderate scale in recent years but best to keep our young ones entertained and get them experience it, also best way to reunite all families and relative together. That’s what Christmas was all about which is why we have to celebrate.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mothers day

Today is a very special day tribute to all mothers especially to my mother. "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY". I get back home early from my usual mountain biking gathering in the afternoon. Reach home by 6pm and took bath. Went out to town and got ourself a nice decent dinner table where my parents and sister gather around enjoying dinner all nice seafood dishes. Of course its my treat today for my dearest loving mother and family. As usual i ordered my favorite butter prawn dishes to keep my spirit high in my stomach. My mom enjoyed it too. I manage to give her a card and present to express our love and thanks for her contribution to us. From her expression she was indeed very happy and gratefull that we're all together to share those happy moments. As we having our meal i watch my mother sip a bowl of ginseng soup slowly and looked into her eyes, skins and every feature of her. Very wrikley, aged and not as active as she used to be when i was young at teen age. Looks helpless i realised its time to pay her back with respect and gratitude. My mom raise us very well into a life full will all necessity that we need to keep us happy and educated. We as a children well protected and well pampered though i heard in the past she never had much luxury in life when she was young as my mother was born in a small village where electricity and modern things hard to come by. ...all wooden, fire stove, water and enough roofed shelter to keep her and her parent well lived back in those days. I guess i realised my mother don't want us to live in her old ways and raise us in such lucky environment. Even thou my parent live in such moderate economy class family they did their best to give us top notch education, food, facilities and entertainment without thinking themselves but all for the sake of their children...us. I don't think i can have such big capacity to be like her so i'm very much amaze with the volume of hardwork she pour onto us. She is almost getting into her 60's now. I was much worried as her health began to deteriorate. All the best i can do now is to make her happy, make a big family, a grandchildren for her soon and make sure she live with a life full off happy memories before the days ends. We as her children would like to say thanks for everything and there nothing in this world that can match her hardwork and love our onto us. We want her to be happy and we'll always be her side when in need. "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY" mom,

Sunday, April 19, 2009

The hospital

Hospital is a sad place. Where human error, misfortune and ignorance of living being ended in this place. It’s a both human repair center and bad place to end life in it. Ok so I did and always in the past tour around several rooms full of patient just to visit love ones held in there. Looking at several faces of patient held there you can see more and more sympathetic faces with those gleaming stare into your eyes non-verbally giving impression in their feeling “only if god give me second chances in life”. Its all true for those outcome ended in permanent deadly diseases like cancer, final stage tumor, comma, stroke and others that causes ones only have a month or two to live. Patient like this they don’t talk a lot, silent, staring very long at one blank point, no face expression, they eat less and always watching outside far into the distance or staring other patient’s happiness whose crowded around with families which he/she have none. In their feeling echo’s words “only if I”, “why ended this way?”, “god why?”……… Sometimes I peek in the corner watching them how they confront with their own mental suffering. Their room was gloomy I can feel the gloomy and sad aura around that person. Watching them is like watching a sad movie but in real live, I know how they felt having able to count days of their life no chances having to see see how big the world is. If I were a doctor I would let the patient go in stead of held their until their death bed arrive. Let them go and let the have their final chances to explore, enjoy they world and be with the family for the last time even the pain in their body grows. Love counts, pain is just emotion.
Sadly enough all these patient are very young. Aged between 24 and 40’s they already contracted permanent diseases which willl end their live soon. Urban and rich lifestyle really paid off onto their body. Cell phone radiation, high chemical content on foods, work stress/hazzard, high speed car, night life, unsafe sex, hazardous chemical on human cosmetics and uncontrolled drugs consumption lead them to the end of the road. It’s a modern age tragedy for those chasing for fortune, glory, fame and excessive prosperity. Which makes me wonder why people who live in the forest lives longer than in the urban.
Why would I bother write this stuff down. Yes, as a reminder to me not to spent to much being part of luxury life, pursue fortune and consume to much of wealthy food and lifestyle which indirectly impact our bodily health. I thank to my father and mother who raise me, I was born moderate lifestyle balance on both urban and green world. My father taught me being active outside and adventurous. My mother cooks nice safe food and provide me spiritual life and emotional support to keep me well disciplined and live a clean healthy life. Even tough after years of living life wasn’t perfect for me, didn’t not became a rich man yet but lucky I live a very healthy and active life free from sickness. “Happiness comes from health, not wealth”.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Christmas 2008

Merry Christmas to everyone especially to my family, relative, friends and the community of internet especially the 4x4evo1/2 community and modelers around the globe. Honestly speaking 2008 was a bleaky year with so many tragedy, misfortunate case, political instability, bad luck, crimes and fake stuff in the market especially that tainted milk issue from china and economic slowmo. The chinese regards 2008 or the number "8" means wealth and fortune but i believe fortunes always comes with a price to pay for, "No pain no gain". Everyone tought Chrismas is a day to be happy among humans because "its end of the year", "oh finally we can share our present and gift" or "its a day to forget everthing and be happy and have a midnight party or gathering".....this is sad. "Christmas" or known as "Christ" + "Mass" (gathering of christ celebration) is a day bto remember Jesus birthday and birth of christianity and good will on earth. A day to remember him and his sacrifices.

On Christmas eve me, family, relative and friends gather around for a big feast of dinner plus with prayer to our Lord and thanks to Jesus for his sacrifices. We having a great time and my stomach are full with delicious dishes...hardly move, by the time i got home i quickly doze off into sleep mode. I'm glad my mind is empty only to think all about the purpose of Christmas. Then the next day on 25th its all rainning whole day, i was happy though....let the rain wash everthing into fresh new leaf. My friends and family went out for some gathering while i have to stay back enjoy my days on my computer and taking my chances doing some work on my PC and project. Throughout the day my meal consists of Christmas cakes and pudding on the table. Some animes videos, 3d models project and some r./c simulator to keep me entertained while rain cat and dogs dropped furiously on my roof. Was cold yet exciting. lots of missed call on my handphones but i'm sure they understand i need to be alone this christmas. my "XAVAGE" models release for 4x4 evo1/2 on my site is not yet released due to slow internet upload bandwith but i'm sure my fan can wait for another day or two since i'm all wash out tired.

2008 is a year of bad luck. Is a year of "Trust no one" and "be myself year" which is worth a lot for me. Its also a year to remember that my gandmother returned to her creator and may she reunited with my grandfather and live happily every after in god's heaven. Happy birthday jesus.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Engagement party

Last Saturday night is my cousins engagement night which spells another busy but happy night to my planned event for my r/c activities, actually this engagement party came suddenly in my timetable but at mom's request so i tagged along for the party to show up and smile for my relative which is on my mother side, I didn't come just to watch the ceremony, just counting time for countdown to dinner where food heavily serve. At last it me and 8 plates of krispy beef, noodles, rice, meat and some meat yes another meat and some oily stuff. The extra large of cold juicy orange drinks plus cans of beer,... ahhhhh..!!! i'm full. Looking at my watch its 9.50pm. I'm ready to move out to the racnig circuit for radio control event later mission.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Saturday party dinner



Well actually its prayer and thank giving dinner, I'm not enjoying much because i have stuff to do upstairs just join for slice of the time. Fried noodles, curry beef, fried sweet sour fish, prawns, yellow rice, another beefy thingy, cakes, jelly and other stuff that i missed. Its a thanks giving prayer over my family over god protection to my family who previously saved from last month accident which causes us to lose one of our vehicle during our journey to attend grandma funeral. Yeah i'm still waiting for my new ride probably next week or later. Uhhh...i'm tired of waiting for my new black Sedan.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Another yummy beef floss! - Day 4 dinner for grandma departure.

Yesterday night we're having big family, relative and friends dinner after prayer and house blessing where my late grandma used to stay in just to keep the place clean, holy and blessed from harm and unwanted entity. The dinner was great, another bunch of beef floss in stocks, So another 3 big bowl for me to munch. Later after that i'm going straight for bed hoping my body getting fat and add more weight the next morning.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Grandma hometown: Part 3 -Monday


Monday 23, Time to go home. Before that leaving the place my favorite uncle who is my mother's little brother gave a me a nice present to add to my Radio Control collection. I was surprise to receive a high quality built R/C buggy made fully from cold forged alloy chassis that was made back in the early 80's. Its was a collectors item a TAMIYA SUPER CHAMP. Wow!!! i was excited and thanked my uncle who was a hard core Radio Control enthusiast. I packed my things and head to the airport along with my little sister and 3 cousins who were heading to the same flight destination as i do. I had great times and felt glad that i renew my visits to this place after absent for more than 5 years. Glad to be on tour.

Grandma hometown: Part 2 -Sunday


Sunday 22, Its burial event. 7.30am in the morning still cold and chilling. I didn't take my bath cuz i here you don't smell much, just brush teeth and wash my faces. Taking bath around this hour is like pouring buckets of ice cube over my body. A nice hot natural tea and biscuits for breakfast. Later at 9am we prepare some food to be cooked in mass amount for our incoming guess during lunch time. Food mainly some fresh buffalo meat, rice, vegetables and hot tea. At 10 guess have light morning snacks and then later its time for the burial ceremony where we load the coffin into the truck to be carry over to our native cemetry. There we have the usual departing prayer for our grandma and some ground work to bury the coffin. Its took almost 2 hours under the hot morning sun. By 12pm noon everyone back to my place for mass lunch ceremony and feast on tasty lunch. Being as hungry as horse i munched 6 bowls of crusty beef floss....yummy!! i don't usually have this kind of chances back at my home. Crusty flossed beef is always been my favorite. According to our mother side tradition funeral ceremony last for 14 days which usual activity include night rosary prayers and big dinner for family, relatives and friends.... it means it doesn't end there yet. So lots of work to do for 14 day, Luckily i'm not going to be long enough here to witness the ceremony because i need to go back to my hometown in MIRI and get back to work....that will be on Monday air flight going back home. At 3pm i followed my father to visit my grandmother of my father side which located few kilo's away from another side of the village, Reaching there we were greeted by our still in good shape grandmother and hos loyal furry friend, 2 cats and 2 dogs. I spend few hours in their house minalyb taking bath, snoring during nap, playing with furry friends and enjoy the view on top of the hill. She still the only grandma we have left. By night i have to pack my things, greet goodbye to my relative as i have to go back to the urban side of the town tagged along with my sister so that we could catch early flight next morning. So we stayed at my mother's sister house.

Grandma hometown: Part1 -Saturday


Ok so we know my grandma already went back to our Fathers house in heaven. So i'm sure she's now in peace and happiness in gods house. Amen.
Its been years i haven't gone back to my grandparents hometown in Limbang city, they usually live outskirt of the city far into the green country side where real friendly people live closely in harmony and live under true meaning of helpfull neighbour. I finally went over by plane last Saturday morning for funeral visit and at the same time visits cousins, relative and people who we closely tied as family. From the LIMBANG city took 30 minutes to reach the remote country side by car. As i grew older i pretty like the village where my grandparents live, its so refreshing peaceful and friendly. You dun have to worry about money life, Food and resources is all around us by nature. At my grandparents place by noon we have to prepare some meal for guest to arrive. At night everyone gathers around like big family reunion including close friend and neighbouring villages. Then later we gather for prayer to my grandma and the rest of the night as usually some people will sleep over our house while other elder hangout drunking, laughing and chatting all night until wee morning...its usual life scene nothing to be shocked about. Sleeping in country side is cold and chilling. You don't need air-cond around here. Its all natural with dense wet cold fog surrounding the house. I have to tuck around the corner of the living room cuddle my body as compact as possible to maintain body heat as there's not much blanket to cover myself as there to many room fully crowded with overnite people.

Cute - Dango Daikazoku



Here something from CLANNAD anime ending song...was voted the best ending song for current season. I guess life is similary as pictured above. Whenever felt doubt about life i always listened to this song which reminds me the purpose of life.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Grandma funeral. Knocking on heavens door.


Sunday is a sad day for everyone, early wee morning we prepare ourself for last view on our grandma before we send her off to the funeral ground. Relative, friends and close neighbours in my grandma's friendly village came over to give comfort and help. By around 10am we did some prayer and then buried her beside her late husband and family whose already left much earlier in the past. My mom and her sister looks very sad but calm to accept such sad departure of their love ones. I did some prayer mine over here. I just hope that she enjoy her new life in her new worl in gods land. She now knocking on heavens door greeted by her long losst love ones. We as her children and great children wishes her happiness and peace high above the heaven. Thanks grandma.