In the evening, mountain biking and online gaming.

Great day today, just got back home at 8.30pm after heavy mountain biking in SIBUTI district same location as last Sunday trip except much longer and deeper which took us more than 5 hours inside the forest. too bad the camera won't work because the batteries worn out of power.(Damn Energizer Alkaline batteries..). BAck at home tired and dizzy i couldn't concentrate my mind because exhausted and pretty hungry after those heavy rides which cause muscle pain and ache..i grab a banana and nice cold orange drink to regain my strength. Before taking bath, i cool down my body and get myself online playing online games: GUNBOUND (http://gunbound.softnyx.net/) Not really good at it just at noobies level for sake of fun. I didn't realised i played until 11.00pm. Forgot to clean my bike and take a bath to clean my sweaty and dusty body of mine. Then i have to take light dinner and a good sleep because the next day is my usual working days. Lame.

Thursday, today is holidays.

I woke up pretty late today..... 11.00am......tired after yesterday long trip cycling to some deep forest hills for thrillings downhill mountain biking and stuff, we're unluck because struck by bad heavy rain, so we're soaky by midnight. Glad today Thursday is holidays and i did took a good long sleep which hardly have any opportunity to do that every Monday and Friday due to working days. I've made special plans for today.
-Update my website
-Join in online Forum
-Clean the house
-Work on Z-modeler 3d works
-Mountain Biking expedition/exploration later this evening
-Watch anime episodes
I missed my breakfast schedule, look like i have to eat lunch like a king. I'll be blogging much often today.

AGP extinction countdown.

AGP going to extinct soon. Graphic card vendors trying to push the price of AGP based card higher by 15%-30% compare to PCI version of the same model series. It looks like the pc hardware manufacturer pushing PCI-Express market broader and affordable to consumer as demand for performance multimedia and gaming graphic increase, By end of 2006, AGP againts PCI-e value versus performance consideration wasn't favourable to AGP because the bandwith transfer technology via AGP couldn't pump up more quality high data bit transfer to cope up with fast framerate game, not worth money to invest since the processing power reached bottle neck.
I've receive call from our local vendor that couldn't supply me an 'ATI X800 XT' AGP card because available stocks is in PCI-e slot. 'ATI X800 XT' is the only graphic ard with almost equal performance to my previous broken 'Nvidia GeForce 6800GT' agp. I decided to switch to ATI since it has received good review being long lasting "stable" performance and wouldn't cook GPU under hot redundant tempreature. Other alternative instead of choosing X800 series are X1600, X850 and X1800 models on AGP. Others higher grade are on PCI-e. The top models on our local shelf for Nvidia is XFX Geforce 6600GT, the vendor confirm its also available but i would risk my wallet for another Nvidia core unless there's no option.
I just need a graphic card enough good quality rendering with high FSAA and Anistropic quality on my models especially when run a complete compiled 3d models inside the 4x4 EVO2 game scene on 1024x768 screen size with software video capture runing in the background, expect an improve frame rate counter around 56 to 70 fps to generate a smooth scene when running my models around the tracks.

Sunday always been a special day! Epic ride!

Sunday is my favorite day, nobody robs my Sunday and put some crappy schedule in my list. Sunday always been my mountain biking days. Today me and my biking buddies went to a place for away from city that is between BAKAM and SIBUTI district where the place is full of forests and remote country side.
At 2.30pm i load my bikes including my cycling partner bike into my sub compact hatch back car which can fit up to 3 mountain bikes at one time. Few minutes we're off to BAKAM district which takes us another 45 minutes to get there. We arrived at the location and unload our bikes and greet a dozen mountain biker who will be joining us into the forest for epic adventure, oh, there's one female on our group and she's very strong biker. At 3.30pm were depart and went inside the forest and speed down the forest canopy/trees, steer our bikes through tight trails, branches, roots and damp soil. Its was really fast, our bike suspension system (MANITOU + FOX + ROCK SHOX) works well under this terrains. Up and down, tight switchbacks turn, steep dual slalom style downhill and high speed chase through dense bushes and trees beside the river bank. During one of the downhills location one of our cycling buddies didn't succesfully steer the bike on steep 'S' turn downhill...he hit the a tree stump and one of his legs hit a sharp wood object and pierce through his left leg above the ankel and got a deep pinch on the flesh. We take 5 minutes to give him aid and then he was good to go and strong enough to pedals for another few kilometers in to the woods. We started pedal up the hills and down into green bushes with background of beautiful far horizon of hills and valley. The sky was blue and moderate hot, We keep on pedal down at full speed, I was on the 2nd place chasing my friend who own a bicycle shop rides on MERIDA TEAM full suspension who was infront of me. He was to fast tp catch up until i can't see him for another 50 meters...previously he trained on roadbikes. Few minutes later i jump out from the thick bushes and landed on logging trails deep in the forest. We gather around and counting heads to see if anyone missing in action. Joe from Canada rides on SPECIALIZED STUMPJUMPER bike was really pushing hard to keep the pace behind me. He got problem going down the steep hill but he's ok. Sometimes i have to ride as fast as i can because when we ride we compete each other to see who can make it to the finishing spot. So i pedal super fast super furious and push my body weight almost behind the seat to keep the bike load balance and less steering error on the front wheels. The trails have to many soft damp soil, holes, big roots and falling trees on our left and right especially at unexpected corner hidden away from our views. As we rides throughout the trails we can see few animals roaming, turkeys, monkeys, snakes, low flying eagles and weird plants like venus fly trap. Sometimes as we travel deep into the center of the wood the climate changes into very breezy and cold tempreature as we going inside tunnel like trails because the roof heavily sprouted with green fresh leaves, thick tree branches and bamboo which prevent sunlights reaching the ground surface. We spent hours of high speed rides around the forest, at the end of the ride we use the exit trails that lead towards local villages that have access to tarmac road. It was deep and winding road with local wooden and well built house situated beside the small road with dark forest in the background. It took us almost 30 minutes to exit and reach the main road which lead back to the place where we park our cars. Finally we reach our parked cars at final destination, its already almost 7.00pm. Mr Ching pull out a big box of case filled with cold canned drinks (100 PLUS Isotonic drinks). I took 2 cans and glup one go. Refreshing! Cold! I can feel the sweet liquid sugar from Isotonic canned drinks flows into my muscles and neutralized acid lactics that causes sore and tiredness on my body. Immediately i feel recovered from exhaustion. Everyone manage to get back safe on time, we gathered around for a good chat and laugh on stories about our current adventure. I chat with one of the bike shop owner about parts replacement on my bikes and tryout new equipment on peoples bike to test out how it perform. Some of us even like to show off some cool cuts, wounds, flesh bumps and scratches around our body, those forest trees, plants, bugs and rough grounds and savage unforgiven terrains sure put our human body a torture test. Luckily i have none because i know how to manouver my bike around the dangerous trails, accident free..hee..hee...pro riders.By 7.45pm we disassemble our bike and load back into our cars and ready to head back home. Joe mention he'll be going back to Singapore to meet his daughter for a week and another week in MULU districts for team exploration, so i bid farewell and hope to see him next ride next month and race again side by side in the forest next time. Ride on buddy!

Its not the face but the heart.

There's a girl that i like trying to avoid from me somehow last yesterday and today, clearly trying to avoid face to face conversation and getting nearby me. She used to be friendly and i gave her two small stuffy animal gift to cheer her up in the past but somehow thing doesn't always turn out right. Was she having stress at work or simply i'm not her type? Maybe i look like crap this week. Or maybe i was meant for her. Anyways i should improve myself and work hard in short period if i would like to have a very special friend.
Oh, speaking of friend for the past few months especially after my birthday, my department colleague behaviour seems to be very suspicious and try to avoid something from me. They seem to be silent and talk 'things' behind me. I don't know what was going on. It happens when i'm busy concentrating my work for the whole month improving my goal and vision but they look disapproval about my doings. Relationships are tension because both sides misunderstood what i have been through the whole month. Work preasure, stress, money management, part time work for extra side income, learning new things and stuff keep me busy whole day which turn me into weirdo, they think my life is easy going, i guess they don't know much about life being adult. Sometimes it made me think that my current job position as technical support sounds too low profile which create gap of relationship againts engineers, programmers and the IT management...It looks like my Degree Certificates with years of programming and network learning gone wasted. The workload also way to heavy for such low profile job and very risky since PR (public relation) and dirty hand labour on tech works compared to diploma holders on keyboards. There's is only one person i respect the most in MIS dept.... he work very hard both during the day and at night, no shame doing low profile works even treated bad for his low wage work but he knew to survive he have to do it for a better future. He remains humble even receive critics from his own colleague. When i look at him i smile and happy that someone share the same fate for a better life. God bless this guy.
Anyways i felt lucky this month, good thing this month i don't have any big projects going on so i get on with normal life except my office colleague. I made few profit but everthing use to pay for insurance and loan spending especially my two cars and personal house in KUCHING city. I'm now waiting for the final batch payment which i'll be using as personal expenditure, so far i haven't receive any feedback from the bank if they did receive the final deposits into my bank account. My client confirm they have sent over to my bank as acknowledged by their mail agents....i'm getting worried. I'm now counting days for it.
I remember i made promises to a girl colleague about treat her for buffet after project completion (the one who receive Teddy Bear for birthday), but after thinking twice about their discriminative behaviour i decided to take back my promises and better spend my money wise on usefull things like fixing my bike.

Once upon a time at my grandma's hometown.

Every Christmas me and my family return to my hometown in LIMBANG district - in Borneo SARAWAK state located near Brunei border for Christmas celebration and reunion. My grandmother live along with my cousins, with her house located remotely far away for urban hustle and bustle of city life. Where my grandma live is a peacefull green country side with borderless backdrops of mountain, green hills, breezy forest and blue sky. Her house surrounded with trees which bear exotics fruits: coconuts, lychees, durians, mangosteen, lime, rambutan, mangoes and black pepper. Usually i stay there for a week, good thing the cellphone reception is strong enough to receive communication signal, my main source for internet connectivity over there is via GPRS services on my Nokia NGAGE. Whenever i'm staying at my grandma house i felt total freedom, no car honking, no sounds of machines, no black smogs, polution, no crowds of people, no airplanes and no paperwork behind the desk in the office....its total freedom. All around me is just green lushes of trees, vegetation, breezy blowing winds on top of the hills and true blue sky with white columbus clouds at 12 noons. At midnight i sleep endure dropping cold tempreature around 18-16 degree celcius, by morning at 6.00am you'll feel refresh and greeted with damp cold fog refreshing every corner of the dense forest and the bird chrips sounds make's you feel at home and ease.
In the morning i woke up early went to have cold bath and get ready for Church's Christmas prayer which is a few walks a way from local church. Then later went back home for heavy breakfast, my gandma always serve us with naturally made pies and cake made from potatoes, bananas and also include durian cakes. Other include fried bananas, hot fried jackfruit dumplings serve with hot coffee and tea. She doesn't need to pull out a single cents to buy all these stuff because mother nature provide all the just behind her house...pluck it and ready to serve. In the cities you'll have to spit out some moneys just for little decent breakfast..but over here it all natural non-artificial buffet good for health. As usual i eat like kings. Before noon i usually follow my father to stroll around the village and meet peoples, local markets, climb on a boat, explore the forest. The peoples are very friendly, they even help you in any sort of difficulties like together building a broken bridges, build place for worship, make roads, help hitchikers, tow you cars and also exchanges foods. Even the public bus drivers know how to joke around and help their passenger in out of the bus aournd the village. This culture have long forgotten practice in the big cities and i'm glad outside the concrete jungle there's someone really cares about polite social life. It made me realised how sucks to be in the big city where material gain comes first and friendship located at the bottom of the social pyramids. You can easily distinguished between friendship and friendshit when you're in an urban culture especially in big fast developed cities. Ok let's get back to my gandma place.
By 12.00 noon, all family would gather around for a good delicious lunch, what so special about lunch? All served with fresh meat, fishes, sauces, fried chicken and cocnut drinks. You can taste the difference between the food bought from the big cities and the food brought up from local market and backyards. Taste like heaven!. Sometimes 3 of my grandma cats would sit beside us and having lunch on separate dishes. Good thing the cats are well trained and discipline when it comes to table manners. Cats over here is not skinny nor fat because they have lots of space to explore around the country side,,backyard full of dense forest trees and like to run around which makes them healthy and fit....plus lower maintenace because they can find their own food and eat fresh fruits and fish, their fur always soft and well maintained...they know how to swim too. Sometime i'm very lucky to see those cats jumping from one branches to another chasing squrriels/marsupial animal up on the tree early cold morning, they looked enjoyed. You won't see typical anywhere in the cities. There's few reason why we love cats, because they did good job to secure and protect my grandma house not only from rodents but pesky spiders, scorpions, snakes and any harmfull lliving things that crept into the house from the forest. They also the ones protect me when i'm sleeping througout the nights protecting me from creepy crawlies by watching me and stand on guard beside me until i wake the next morning. The dogs helps to watchout for big animal like buffalos or wild animals. Buglars? nah,,everyone around here are nice people. Seldom hit by buglars even in 5 years. True peaceful village. There's no gates, fences or anything to protect the property including 4 cars below the house. Pure peace!

On afternoon me and my father and mother would continue travel from point to points around the country side to look over our land that was belong to the family inheritence to check if our few hectars of our land intruded by other people or any illegal activity on top of our land. Later then we visit another of our family member from my father and mother side. For your information both my mom and dad grandparent and cousins are lived on a same concentrated area, which make its easy to visit our relative nearby. Sometimes i would pull out my bike and cycle in the forest and check out cools trails and hills. Good thing i was born as a mountain biker who love to try out new adventurous trails. In the evening we gather as usual and have dinner with our kitchen windows wide open looking at a birght stars at night plus BBQ chicken and beef. The kids gathers at the living room to watch tv. After dinner i usually stay at the kitchen observing my grandma baking cakes and make a rice covered banana leave dumpling mix with coconut milk and barbequed it on the stove for tomorrow breakfast. For me its a great learing experience on how to make my own home made granma recipe when i return back home soon. Before midnight at 10.00pm i would pull out my portable computers or my NGAGE QD, turn on the GPRS services and checkout my websites, forum and mails just to keep up with the latest news and updates. Grandma cats always walk around me and stood by to watch me busy on the screen. As midnight falls the elders still chatting around with relative at night enjoying drinks, puddings, cakes and hang around for good ol-times stories until its almost day break....its typical way to celebrate Christmas over here.

On the second day we usually return home back to the city...the materialistic civilization. Its a long trip. The scenery outside the card windows slowly turn from fresh green and blue sky to dull concrete silver white and dusky sky of the urban nation. Return back to the wasteland where humans are part of the corrupt system and where money rules. That reminds me when i stay at grandma's country side i only spend $5 a week compare to urban life for $200. Its really make sense now when the god says, "Leave all your treasure on earth and don't worry and think about what you should have"...mother nature provide all neccessity needed. Anyways if i'm rich and wealthy i'll return back to this green country side, make a small decent house on top of the hills and enjoy peaceful life where i can enjoy the wind and the peace under the blue sky.

Next!.....Conquer the highest peak.

Here is a memorable snapshots of me cycling on my mountain bike deep in borneo forest climbing on steep rocky trails leading way up above sea level early in the morning at 10am in BINTULU district... that was 8 years ago. The bike i was riding 8 years ago was GT Avalanche 2.0 on Rock Shock XC and full LX groupset system. Now i'm waiting my chances to return back to the same spot to ride on my bike way up to the top of the highest peak in that forest, this time with new improve mountain biking technology (FASTRAX bike, MANITOU suspension and XT/XTR groupset) plus my aging body. Me and my cycling buddy looking foward for a long holidays trip to spend most of our adventure touring around borneo island. This year i have keep some of my holidays up to 11 days of annual leave balance as permitted by my company this coming months. I'm planning to use up the my budget i acquire from my last 3d project to spent on upgrading my bikes, replace worn out bike accessories, air tickets and the trip expenditure on my next holiday leave. I hope this is going to be best adventure into the exotic forest of borneo. Mountain Biking rocks!

Relaxing evening.

What a tiring day, today i'm runing a two day presentation in the conference room for all sub company IT user...its all about MIS user management and stuff. By evening i came back home at 6.00pm and doze for few minutes on the bed for a short nap before taking bath. Dinner at 9.00 pm and 30 minutes later enjoy some anime video collection i bought few months ago. I'm in the mood for action pack anime so i watched MEZZO DSA. Good story line Femme Nikita alike action. All 13 episode to keep me entertain this evening before wake up the next day and work my butt off behind the desk.

Show some respect, not cheap labour.

I was offered to help my friend to fix his broken server and reinstall back all the ASP functionality, scripting function and redesign the web interface again at special pay rate. My expectation to receive around few hundred. But at the end of the day he try pull things off with a small price to pay for such profitable rate of return website when the setup is completed. Doubt with my friend offer i decided to stall the work to see how much desperate he wants his web server to run. A week later i asked how much he would expect to pay me for such server setup services, He said: "USD$35 to get the server runing back and ASP interface funtional for e-Business based website" ...so I purposely said, "Nah i don't have time for that job". so i bla, bla and bla..actually i hate when people pay such small amount for the expertise a person gain and experience to provide services on such task. Looking down at person's working skills and experience is a bad move, anyone who do that to me really going to get it in the face. So i walk off and leave the web service behind..see if he can fix it himself. Show some respect to skilled worker.

Looks who's up in the morning.

Looks who's coming to greet me in the morning, its the backdoor cat. Every morning i spot her in the corner behind my house sleeping all night till morning hiding away from other cats. Actually this cat doen't have any owner but she is welcome to come around the house for a good stay. She like to approach me when i'm put out some clothes for drying. She'll sit there and stare at me with small cute "meow" telling me how's my day. Its doesn't ask for food but the way it stare at me wishes to tell me some usefull message. For me they always bring me good luck. Yes, indeed i have a wonderful evening exploring the forest on my bike praised with good sky blue weather..while some other part of the district quite hazy.

Seeking a special friend under one roof.

Saturday, my life as an MIS (Management Information Technology) personnel have been very interesting everyday. Unlike other staff at my department my job is to walk around and support people, you can almost call me the people guy who have to meet various people and consult their need on computer related problem. This is good. Unlike last year i have to sit behind the desk remain seated boring infront of the computer, i almost have both power and control to the MIS because of authority to access various critical resources which is indeed compulsory to support people in the company. So my nature of work is extra special, plus i get to meet lots of people both lower and top management including high ranking bosses.
Well today the relation between me and other company and various department become more and more closer each day. Usually i always have to meet lots of girls/ladies to support on their computer system. Majority of the worker in the company run by female so i get to see lots variety female working around the clock. Some friendly, cheerful and few considered awkward and doubtfull when approach to them. Almost 50% have married status while other poking around with grumpy face for being single. I've been single for many years but so far didn't have any feeling for being lonely because i haven't experience anything like that. Maybe i think its time for me to look for a very special friends...a girlfriend to share out feeling and experience happiness.
There lots of female always greet me with a smile and cheerful expression everytime i come to their place or just stumble by to say hello. But only few match my type: Long straight hair, no funky color hair dye, taller than me, very mature voice, physically slender and pleasant to talk around. In a place where i work there's are 3 floor. There are girls that i'm really interested in; 2 located on 2nd floor (secretary dept + **ip**** dept), 2 located at 1st floor (secretary dept + ppk)and 1 located and ground (front) floor except this one is very special, she is passive in term of attidude similar to my past favorite close schoolmate. Usually when i approach to them i don't talk a lot to them because of shy factor, sometimes doubt if she still vacant or been taken by other boyfriend. I also tried to get their birthday date so i can just gift them a special gift to cheer them up but not force into anything..just like to see them smile and happy face is enough to make me feel more happier even if i don't have chances to be with her. Usually for female gave them stuffy animals or something to cuddle on, something usefull and soft enough for everyday use. A perfect gift for female at first start.
Its very hard for me to make my first move on her because i'm not even taught by anyone how to, usually i do get good advice from the Madams who work in the same building for tips and help...but that doesn't sound manly. Hope to get one interesting girls/ladies before next valentine day so i have someone to share my happiness and experience.

Sweet memory lane.

When ever i looks at my old creation 'XCALIBUR CD4.0 XS-XL' it reminds me of an old TAMIYA Radio Control models that i always wanted to have when i was 12 years old. My enthusiasm for R/C models triggered when my uncle show off some of his cool R/C models collection, he got tonnes of it and i remember he gave me a DAYTONA R/C models run on electric..that was enough to make me happy. But still i like buggy and suspension tech off-roaders but still they are way to expensive to buy and maintain. Thats why few year ago i came up with 'XCALIBUR'designs built inside modeler program and ported into 4x4EVO game as add-on just to spark my good old sweet memories of the past. In 2006 this models still looks sweet and really catchy in every racing game. I feel very proud because i wouldn't need to look further to grab one in the real world. With just 3d tools and texture program i could make myself a models of my dream. Just like a lego brick: New toys everyday.

Zzzz..zzz...zzzz

Its a very long day today, felt that this day will have no end, no dusk no dawn. My head spinning around in exhaustion and felt almost asleep in the car. 30 min later as we speak i'll be going to bed to refresh my body and relax for the day. I hug my pillow tight and dream all the way. lol

New moded PC

Oppss, looks like i've been out of the picture for two days. Well i'm back, actually previously my computer went down badly and i decided to reformat the whole hardisk....which explain why i haven't logged on to the internet. And then i decided to install both OS on seperate hardisk: HD1= Windows XP, HD2=LINUX SUSE 10.0. At the same time i pick up my ASROCK motherboard junker and put it into a new plastics housing (which was previously a paper tray) to make i look like compact portable pc. Neat eh? Well its a bit too small and less storage devices minus drive bay. What makes it a bit bulky is the PSU. Wish i could find a 450W PSU small enough to snug into small corner and save up some space to fit the whole system in a break fast cereal box. Anyways i'm satisfied and the custom mod mini pc aim for portability. Finally i can move around my mini pc around the house with cool tools to work on my models good thing these can fit on my back packer back with LCD and mini keyboard and other IO devices.

Happy cute girl gamer.

Today i made a girl happy because i promised her to share some of my old Super nintendo game (SNES) titled HARVEST MOON and made run it into her mobile phone via emulator. I helped her to install a SNES emulator and put my dumped file rom into her Nokia 6600 phone. She was excited and happy...she was super cute girl too who works at secretary department. Before that she was bored alone during lunch hours and all she could do is just put her head on the keyboard on take a short nap before next office hours start, so i approached to her and share some cool computer stuff, she said she is interested in gaming and so that's where our same interest started to bloom. She's an avid online gamer mostly on RPG (Role Playing Game). I'm surprise there's a girl gamer at my work place which rarely seen one in the crowd of kitchen utensils minds. I was hoping she could keep her hair long because she looks good with it.

The wind and the rain.

Its very gloomy and wet seasons in MIRI city where i live. Now its been almost a week the rain and cold weather befall into my city. For me its a good thing for it to rain at night to spice up my sleeping mood but it bring bad news during the day since it interfere my outdoor activity. Last night i came back home at nearly 12.00am midnight from mountain biking expedition....soaky, muddy and cold wet...and late. Me and my buddy have to face strong wind coming from the nearby sea which we could feel the wind speed pound us around 40-50km/h..very strong which started to at around 9.00pm, slow our cycling speed to struggling 17km/h head-to-head with the wind. 5 minutes later heavy strong rains hit us hard. Good thing we have our headlights and rear light flash the pitch black surrounding the trails so we could see through thick rainfall ahead and made safetly home hours later. Cold and battered but yet felt thrilled and proud that we made through some rough journey on our human powered two wheelers.

S3 Pro Savage DDR...bad GPU.

I've manage to get the S3 Pro Savage DDR display driver install properly on my PC but the 3d rendering and display is not at satisfactory level when it comes to wireframe viewing....not smooth and doesn't displayed any object in certain view port (missing object display on top right side view port). S3 Pro Savage DDR (which comes built-in on ASROCK mobo) may not be suitable for heavy 3d works but for now it did just enough good job making low poly models for my track object while waiting for my new 3D graphic card on ATI gpu. I lack trust on Nvidia after reading review on their gpu which easily toasted on normal used even at non Over Clock status. Ditch the green logo and turn into Red cube.

Another scary dream.

I had a dream. I was walking side by side with someone beside the beach, the wave was calm and we were by pass a huge caved vertical rock formation which already carved into a living quarters for cave men but stood in the middle of the sea. It was at dusk time when the sun almost engulf by the horizon backdrop. In the cave there was a man made wooden stair case. Then suddenly a person ran down the stair in terrified expression and moving out from the cave and jump into the sea to swim back to shore. Not far distance a small translucent white pale figure at size of a child hover meters above the stairs went down and follow the terrified guy. Everyone at the beach who watch from the distance were shocked and ran away from thata area including me as we realised that floating entity was not a living thing but instead things from haunted cave. Days getting darker everyone run back to their car, some took shelter in the villa while i was trying to run and find someone to accompany me, then more of this thing pop-out out of nowhere spooking the public in chaotic scene. I was hiding behind the wooden dustbin and poof!.....i awake! gosh it was a dream.... a rare one. Looking at my Nokia Ngage screen.. 5.29am 8 August 2006. Have to be cautions.

The scene and aparation reminds me of these game i played on playstation 1: Echo Night. Check it out at game spot:

http://www.gamespot.com/ps/adventure/echonight/screenindex.html

Freaky huh...I hope i don't have to go in there again.

Understanding my old designs.

Sometimes i misjudge how people feel towards every car/trucks models i designs. Their taste, style, feel, and preferences differ differently from other people. Usually i tends to make newer models just to keep up and spice up the design to tailor ones taste but sometimes it the other way around over time. For example i didn't expect my old models "EXODUS CD 9.0 XL-SRS" rated top choice among mod/gaming fans, instead my expectation is on 2005 "CYBORX CD 10.0 XL-GT" last year. Logically taste and design preferences in the mind of public much more influenced by its surrounding changes and trends. Looking closely at "EXODUS" it resembles ever popular facelift and shape of an import tuner with street gangster racer attitude. Skylines, EVOs, 350z and 180sx genes almost resemvbles "EXODUS" which make it much famous than any other car pop-up on he internet. For me its was design to test out how far can the car evolve into other mature design but i ended up putting it way above the sky than other evolved models. SRS rocks!

Strange dream.

Last night i had a strange dream, everyone around me in the public gone naked, couples running along holding hands in the nude and pee at each other at their own feet in full enthusiastic and show fondness. What the? As if the world come to a point where adam and eve return back to the time where relationships and happiness is more than material gains. I still don't get whats the meaning having such absurb dream. Usually i hardly remember any thing that i dreamed and tends to forget how to describe the scenes but this one is different and i can remember everthing clearly. People says dream equivalent to a person prophecy.....hmmm....

Fine day outdoors....it was ggggrrrrreeeaaatt!

Saturday and Sunday are my golden days, well since i don't have proper 3d graphic card to play around on my computer i decided take a two days off starting yesterday enjoying outdoor sports...as usual: mountain biking. The day was blessed with sunshine and blue sky and by night especially this Sunday evening the moon shone the dark land into brighly pale blue romantic scenery as me and my friend cycle back to our home along the coastal seaside. The cotton grass wave as the windy breeze from the seaside blew behind us. Ahhh.... so cooling and refreshing. Our two days cycling trip was a blast and memorable adventure. We travel from one end of the district to the other end of the border crossing through various villages, roads, trails, forest and beaches. I reached home at 10.30pm just few minutes ago after i type this blog as we speak. Tonite i'm taking my bath, having nice dinner and do some LINUX tryout on SUSE package. As for 3d card Geforce 6800GT reviving task was a failure, i decided to pick ATI products by next month since their graphic hardware much more tougher and lasts longer than my current ones. Looking foward to stretch my hands on 3d modelling task soon.

A hope?....Saving my 6800GT.

Right now i haven't give up hope reviving my only favorite graphic card which fail to function weeks ago. I've been checking various resources on the net about troubleshooting my only AGP type graphic card: Geforce 6800GT. I found probably it could have been under power or cooling problem but i'm going to try it out now. During start up it did show some signal except the weird artifacts and vertical color distortion. Could almost see a text error displayed along of a bit of pixelated blue background. I slot the card on my ASROCK P4 motherboard which have built-in AGP graphic card: S3 Savage DDR Pro which run as primary to aid the secondary slotted Geforce 6800Gt card when enter in diagnose mode. Which me luck.

Clean up time and job well done.

I hate useless stuff lying around on my table whether its at my home or at my workplace, yesterday i took my time tidy up my own work desk in my office dept, not that messy but really need extra super tidy up. All useless papers, KIV ones and also some old documents shredded to pieces and throw into trash can. If not it's kinda headache if you see stuff bundle pile up as if i haven't finish up my work. Yesterday i took my time finish up my work without leaving any left over task for tomorrow which i took overtime by one hours than my usual end work time. I don't like to delays or left the job to continue for tomorrow because i have lots of thing to settle and staff appointment on the next day. Sometimes i force to do something out of my work description which is really bad and unsuitable/over the edge job and the problem is Asian labour law kinda loose around here, it just like a beautiful magazine cover with bleak contents should i say. But anyways its good thing i finish up everything my job well done for the day without delays so that i wouldn't have any headache to carry on the next job at night.

My Guardian Angels.

I always wake up pretty late than scheduled. Sometimes my alarm clock couldn’t shake me up. Nothing can pull me out from the bed when I’m under unconscious mode except this soft voice……..”David, wake up!” I was like shock and wake up to see who was that, looking at the time watch its exactly 5.30am, the exact time I should have wake up. Now this voice where does it come from?

This is not the first time but it happens almost everyday as if there was a person beside me, a companion, care taker, a guardian angel taking care of me throughout my life. I felt its presence ever since I was a small kid, I am an adventurous person who likes to travel alone, explore alone and seeking thrills alone without anyone to watch over me and take care of me when I’m in trouble. My mom always pray for my safety and she is very religious person, at onetime she prayed until the Rosary beads turn from dull color to bright blue bead when she travel to the Holy City in France, she prayed in special church. I’m on the other hand didn’t pray as much passion as my mother but I always believe God, His Son and The Holy Spirit in the Heaven. So about this thing that keep watch over me, I always felt that he or she always be with me in pain and suffering. My habit always travels to unknown places or sometimes let say adventuring deep into the forest alone. I don’t felt much scared when discover something that is never experience by me because I felt there is someone who as if a very long friend of mine who are virtually accompany me and guard me through my journey. Sometimes I heard a deep lowly voice warn me not to go…usually we call these symptoms as INSTINCT or inner self-conscious but for me its My Angel that speaks.

There a lot of incident which indicates that angels/invisible guardians existence prove real to me. There’s one particular incident where my car been broke in by thieves as stated in my previous blog record, before it happen I did bring some lots of valuable expensive portable devices which I plan to leave it in the car. I almost left it in but an inner voice strongly persuade me, “No, don’t leave your things behind, take them with you”. So I turned around back nto my car and grab my stuff and head to the Church for Sunday prayer. Later after the mass I went back into my car and shocked, the thieve broke-in but luckily I didn’t left any valuables…its inside my pocket thanks to angelic inner voice.

There are times when I travel to alone into deep remote forest when suddenly a deep inner voice voice telling me: “Don’t go there!”. So I halt my steps and turn back around until one day a friend of mine tell me that the forest that I was about to go full of spooky and dirty things…glad I was save by this mysterious voice…was it instincts or six sense? As you know I ride mountain bike a lot and cycle to various unknown path and trails. The decision of choosing the right path, trails/road not only based on rational thinking but based on 95% trust on my inner instinct and voices that warn me, guide me and lead me to the safest path. Sometimes this angel guardian voices speaks in my head saying, “Over there, go up and enjoy the beautiful view” ..i followed and did manage to get a good spot up the hill to enjoy beautiful scenic view of the city never been there by any local public.

His/her presence make me feel safe. That’s why I dare to go places and try out something new because someone will look over me and protect me as long I believe in him/her. I also always encounter serious accident which cause almost my life numerous of time but when it hit me I woke up and look around me, I’m in one piece! Bike accident happens the most. When I’m lost in a big places or remote area there are always voices in me to guide me out to safety. Ever since then almost every day when I’m in trouble I always seek advice from the voices that comes in inner me.

A priest used to say to me when I was small. “As long you believe in Him, the Angels, the Holy spirits from the Heaven above will look over you and protect you”. Now I’m happy, I’m not alone.

Burn..burn the calories!

The ladies at the office gave me numerous snacks for me to eat plus some cakes. I ate all of them until i realised it contain too much fat and calories. So later that evening at 5.30pm i went back home and went out again for outdoor adventure on my mountain bike. So i pedals as hard and as far as i can until the muscles suck up all those fat and excessive calories burned it into energy. I pedal back as far distance to the same place near the "BRUNEI" border and "U" turn back again towards "LAMBIR National Park" half way through located at the outskirt of 'MIRI' city. It took me 2 hours to complete the loop until at 8.00pm the day becomes darker and cloudy...later it started to rain. I push myself to the max, reached home with slightly wet on overall my body and equipment. Looking into my cyclo computer i have traveled 157.95km in just 2 days of rides which is on last Sunday trip and today. Cool!

Packs of custom design wheelsets.

These wheelsets are surplus from my previous contract project, will be made available for free to the public, race sims and 3d mods community soon. Low poly 3d construction ideal for those who wants speedy performance for their vechicle models run smooth on any simulation race track and off-roading, it looks very details too. Wheels models varieties ranging from street, off-roads and monsters. I'm planing to put these package to be separated and scattered around embedded in my upcoming custom track project called Whirl Wind 2 (revival of WW1 series). The pack will be hidden random location inside track area as a treasure item. So players have to drive their vehicle to various location as their main treasure hunting activity finding clues to where about the treasure are. Before that i have to work out the track design, object models, environment and etc to make things happens. Not only wheels to be buried in as treasure...some special vechiles too.

Rudolph the red nose reindeer.

Ya i do feel like one today. I woke up in the morning, grab a tooth paste, a brush and started to brush my teeth. As i looked up into the mirror i was shocked to see my nose swollen red. WTF?! An acne below the skin at the tip of my nose swollen and buldge shiny like Santa's Rudolph the red nose flying reindeer. Wrong timing, i have to bear with it as i have to pop-up to work and showing my swollen nose to the public. Hey look, binky the clown! Ha ha.. what a day. I guess maybe my facial skin dried and hot during asleep which developed such swollen acne and stuff. The good news is it shows my skins is healthy and hormone keep on growing active. Hmm..good sign indeed.